I'm very depressed, on bipolar and depression medication, and i've been depressed for several years and a self harmer for 6. often i feel like I "enjoy" feeling depressed. I think part of it is i feel I "deserve" it, so when i feel it it feels right. also, i'm so used to it, it's probably my most common feeling (messed up, i know), cause i almost always feel it to some degree or another, that it's almost normal. I honestly have no idea what i would be like if i no longer was depressed. even my friend has no clue (she knows some of the extent). Anyone else like this? I know it's abnormal in that most people don't feel this way, but among depressed people is this normal?