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did i smoke something bad?
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I started smoking marijuana about a year ago, and I do it spiritually. Not for any other reason. I feel even moreso when I'm by myself and I'm smoking. I smoked with a group of people I didn't feel comfortable with and felt a freakish sense of doom, like something wasnt right. For me, this isnt normal because my highs are normally very clear and I can keep the "connection" if anyone knows what I mean. I felt like I was having lapses, going from being connected to being completely terrified. In and out, in and out. Ever sense, I've felt shaky, confused, unable to hold a conversation without feeling extremely paranoid. It kind of stinks. I'm very self conscious now, I look over my shoulder, wondering whos gonna read my mind next! lol, but seriously. I'm not going to change my beliefs over this, I'm just concerned and was wondering if anyone else has had this type of experience? It's been bothering me for some time now, I still feel my connection but when I'm around other people, I still feel that same sense of doom, someones reading my mind, they think I'm "bad", etc. Not fun. Is this normal??
Do you think it's normal?
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mrsdoubtfire (21516)
2009-04-03 12:29:25
I've had this happen to me several times, I don't know what causes it really but when this starts happening you have to focus on what's real and remember you're just having a bad trip. It's the only way to get through it. Also it helps to see if you can remove yourself from the situation you're in and get somewhere comfortable and do something fun. Keep your mind occupied or you'll start freaking out.
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roadrunnerxo (21317)
2009-04-09 00:06:04
@: mrsdoubtfire
Thank you so much!! Your a life saver and I love you for answering this for me, I haven't been able to find anyone to give me any answers. This makes alot of sense though. =]
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theanswerisprobablynotnormal (21883)
2009-04-12 18:02:47
You do it spiritually? WTF?! You're killing yourself!
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melvino (21918)
2009-04-13 17:43:59
man jus chill...wen ur around people think of the worst thing to say in that moment in ur head ...wut nothing is going to hapen...it makes you feel better...for me it cuased me to talk to my self...it acually made me funny i hav funny conversations with my self an use the jokes with my friends.
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holysmokes111 (21828)
2009-04-14 05:53:56
that's called getting sketched out... either that or you smoked some pcp
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Princess280 (22038)
2009-04-16 15:12:45
How can you take drugs in a non-medic form and call it spiritual. The drugs have gotten to your head and those are the side effects you are suffering from taking it.

You are probably addicted now so if you want to stop this paranoia and feeling of unease then I suggest you talk to someone proffesional and confidential to help you off the drugs because it may be doing you good in the short term but it is obviously having a mixed up damaging effect on the long term.
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lotsofjunk (15110)
2009-04-18 22:01:38
fascinating
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Anonymous (Story Author)
2009-04-21 19:38:05
@: theanswerisprobablynotnormal
haha what do you mean by that? killing yourself?
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tsospsr (22396)
2009-04-27 11:54:31
@: theanswerisprobablynotnormal
hes not killing himself...
even tobbaco and alcohol can be more dangerous than weed.

learn some about it..
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XxINCHAINSxX (23121)
2009-05-17 23:08:30
Hmmmm. I have smoked for almost 9 years now, (Since I was 12) I don't remember ever being incredibly paranoid. But I will admit I have gotten much less than friendly vibes from people, like I felt they didn't like me or what I stood for. But in the end, just relax and remember. Life is but a dream.
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Ollieo (19003)
2009-08-06 05:05:31
You smoke too much pot. Anxiety & paranoia are well known side effects. Its not you. Its the pot. Quit smoking.
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anabolic19 (25748)
2009-08-11 06:46:59
fuck it if it feels weird smoke some more and then if its still weird then keep smoking im sure it will eventually feel right unless you have an "episode" like my friend had where he tryed to kill himself with a dirty tea spoon was funny i punched him for his own good
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thundercat (30147)
2009-10-21 18:28:35
well, it would be 'normal' to have psychotic episodes when using psycotropics.
The organism will react differently under different conditions, internal and external. And, mind you, those episodes can be milder or deeper and stronger, being these ones able to lead to chronic psychosis.
My advice is to look for spirituality in less risky ways. There are many, healthier and truer.
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