Doing drugs and want another way of life

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you are in the middle of the road. the only way to find what you want is to get to one side of the road or the other. either you want to live a long life ,or may you rest in pieces

My thoughts exactly... But everyday I seem to change my mind. I guess i'm just too young to stick to just one wish.. :D

Listen, I am 21 years old- I have been smoking weed since I ws fifteen and I have done more than my fair share of exstasy- truthfully I almost died because of it last year and I am not ashamed to say it. I LOVED DRUGS. Too much. I wasn't stupid but I made horrible decisions in the start of my life and I let it ruin everything good around me. I work at a plastics factory too. I love my job. I love the life that my job allows me to have- but more importantly I love the life that I allow me to have. People love all sorts of crazy things- Your ability to recognize what is going to "love you back" is very very important in life. And in the end drugs always make you want more. Love makes you feel full always, not just sometimes- I got my job at the plastics factory when I quit doing x and now- I have had two promotions, I focus, I make good money, have a new home and a boyfriend who I can also love and because I love all this and it loves me back- I am full and without drugs, able to realize what is important to me. Find what is important to you-and you will find yourself until then you are nobody...

Hey thanks for the cheer-up! Really nice with a person who has "been there", if you catch my drift. Not that its a good thing that you've nearly OD'ed but that you have rided the horns off, or whatever the saying is. :D I kinda need it, cause I just got temp. suspended from my apprenticeship, and will have to work another 9 months until school again. I see this as a lesson and will be paid full wage instead, so I guess i'll start going crazy :D No, but seriously I just want to get this education and start getting myself together and growing up. In time, the drugs will hopefully be but a really nice memory.

Signed!!!

Pleeeeeasssse stop calling weed a drug! Your problem is the other nasty chemicals you're pumping into your body. When you say that you want to "just say fuck it, and do lots of drugs and die young", you'll never die from just the pot my friend. Quite impossible. The other stuff...yes. The effects of a weekend meth binge can carry on through the rest of the week. Your body is deprived of sleep, nourishment, and hydration. Not to mention your heart, brain, and vital organs have been put through a hyper speed ironman marathon. That's probably why you "screw up". By the time the weekends over, you're body and mind is a pile of exhausted shit. No offence intended, just being honest. If you don't believe me about the pot...like I tell everyone, do the research.

Im a dealer as my carrear choice, and Im neer your age. I understand were you are coming from and would like to advise to you to choose life. Ive always just ballanced drugs, school, family and friends. And if somthing gets out of wack, I simply go clean for a few weeks, and look at my life. Self control is what you must have. If you cant control yourself, dont use drugs. If you are of a sane mental status and can control your urges, then its up to you. Ive always enjoyed them tho

First of all, I'm terribly sorry if I made it seem like I think of weed as a drug. I don't say that at all, but what 95% of the non-smokers do. Weed is nor as dangerous as other legalized drugs or medications, but actually harmless, I know that, but as Vortex said, its up to me to balance between the real life and my own world. I have realized I was nearly "fading" away in my own existence in a haze of hash and drugs, and I think that I have "upgraded" or understood the meaning of the fine balance and timing of going to Lalaland :)Thanks you guys, you've really made my mind up about life and carrear-choices, esspecially you, Vortex! I'd like to deal a little my self, but I just don't know the right people yet, so I'm kinda blocked. But anyway, if it cheers anyone up, I'm pretty happy about my life right now and ready to take on any challenge life may give me! :)

PS: I am really, really stoned right now... wooooah o_O