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Is it normal to be surrounded by numerosu people everyday, btu still feel so alone? I've forced myself to lie two lives: my school ife and my home life. At first, I was able to clearly separate the two: bubbly, slightly eccentric and adventuous, but never boring personality. Then at home, in light of the never endign family drama (its worse thatn a soap opera--your actually living it) I turn almost mean and disconnected. Laughter rarely exists in my home. My mother drives me to the point that I actually contemplate whether I'm actually crazy or bi-polar.
Lately though, my 'home' life has spilled into my school life: I choose to isolate myself from friends and classmate due to random bouts of depression and sometimes I hate people whose lives are much more happier than mine currently is. I hate that I feel this way, but I cannot help it. I choose to loose myself in my mind in a land of fiction and unreality because its easier than to face reality sometimes.
Am I normal to feel this way?
Do you think it's normal?
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Comments (9)
chakmak (21484)
2009-04-01 11:06:46
It sounds like your family situation is just taking its toll on you. Stick it out, study hard and get into a good college. I bet you will feel alot better when your living away from home.
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snufflebunny (21325)
2009-04-02 14:10:27
Call up ol' Dr.Phil.
Just talk to your family and maybe plan a night where you are all together and happy. They might understand.
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samatron1380 (21529)
2009-04-02 20:37:43
It sounds like you are going through the same stuff that a lot of kids go through. I know i went through the same stuff. High school is such a small part of your life, believe me after you get out on your own things will be a lot more challenging but a lot better, just hang in their and youll be fine
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wackoo (21197)
2009-04-07 01:43:09
Hang in there :)
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JoeyAnne (21868)
2009-04-12 03:42:14
I'm exactly like you. Outside this home, I'm alive and happening. I bring smiles to everyones faces (so I've heard), and I'm learning to incorporate that into my home life. When my grandma died, I nearly lost it. I stopped talking to my friends, and my grades slipped fast. But I learned that I shouldn't do that because I'm missing out on life. So don't hate other people because you think their lives are better, make your life better. Its in your hands.
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ashbabyx3 (21469)
2009-04-12 22:02:40
@: JoeyAnne
for your reason, your comment gave me tremendous hope
:)
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drtywiteboy (25343)
2009-07-09 23:54:11
as messed up as it is, there is ALWAYS someone worse off then you. i started to realize i didnt have it so bad when i met this guy named kyle. we became fast friends but he would never invite me over. turned out his ma was locking him in the closet when he would mess up... hes living with a foster family now, as i informed the cops about this. he was pissed at first but is glad i did so now. my point being, lighten up about life, and pray for those who have it worse, cause no matter how bad you think it is, think of the people who have really messed up familys, and force a smile.
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SyC0Pathik (26085)
2009-07-25 20:29:12
i feel the exact same its like i wrote that insted of you i dont know if its normal (what is normal anyway)but i feel for you
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maya617 (30062)
2009-10-23 12:24:27
i agree with drtywiteboy, u never know how other people have it. the grass always seems greener on the other side.
the truth is, all families have their problems.
maybe some councelling wouldn't be a bad idea, to help you cope.
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