I am 19 and have never thought of being gay in my life... always been attracted to women but kind of felt rejected by them and afraid of them. A month ago I had a random thought I was gay, now it bothers me a lot. I was drunk at a party last night and one of my frat bros I thought was really weird kept rubbing my neck and thigh like I was a girl and it really bothered me, he also kept asking me to go back to the dorms with him which was even worse, but I was drunk and I almost bought into it... is that gay? I don't know what is wrong with me, I keep thinking I am gay but I have always had dreams about being with girls, and just the night before this I had a dream about being with a girl I had a crush on and how great it felt to be in love with a woman... I don't know what to think of myself. I keep hearing about gay people in the media and I keep having to read about them and write essays on the topic in English so I can never stop hearing about it. Is this just me going through a phase, am I just lonesome from the fear of being rejected by girls, or am I weird? Serious comments only please.