This is it, the time has come to end this sh*t and finally do what ive been thinking for years. I dont know why im writing it here but i need closure, i need to tell someone. I cant take life no more its at the point where i have to end it and hopefully there is some thing else much better than this. Im out of here. You will be the last people i associate with, people i dont even know. How pathetic is that? Asking why i bet, its a long story and i aint got that long to explain. Abused, bullied, family problems, girlfriend after 5 years sl*tted around just to name a few. Replies are probaly to late. Please write a prayer for me instead (It may help) Thx for listening and you thoughts. Bye to all my mates at this site. Especially Cab 69, jismcreme, crazy MoFo, Donkyspuzz. Yous all made life more bearable. Bye Bye.
Instead of killing yourself start living your life like you have very little to loose.
CHANGE IT!
It is very scary to move and start a new life but hey... it obviously cant get much worse than it already is.
Its not like you have anything to loose.
There are more women than your slutty wife out there.
There are more people than just bullies out there.
Find those people, work on making bonds with them.
And also, see a schrink... if that will give you a 1% chance of making your life livable its waay worth it.
Just like the american torture master in Baghdad said: "Everybody breaks eventually, its just a matter of time".
you do have that long to explain numpty, your whole fucking existance.
Peace Out
The CrazyMoFo
Please sit back and think things over. From your post you still sound pretty young, and if so, believe me things will pass and things Will get better - If YOU let them.
Abused, bullied: In school? This will pass, and when you look back at it in about ten years, YOU will probably be doing well and those who bullied you may be parking your car. - It hurts, I was bullied badly my last year and a half in school, but turn the anger you feel into a drive to succeed.
Family? Give it time, if you are still living at home, THAT will change too! If the family IS bad then use the drive to succeed to do well, move out and forget them, but remember if you can make peace, family is always there for you.
Girfriend slutting around? Forgive me, but it does happen sometimes. I am sad for you and I know how it can hurt *(A BF slutted ME out once) but there are PLENTY of us out there. Find someone who you Deserve! Sounds to me like you might have been to good for the bitch!
Be safe. Seek help. Love yourself!
Tobra
People Die...So love them everyday.
Beauty Fades...So look before its gone.
Love Changes...But not the love you give.
And if you love, you'll never be alone.
- L. J. Smith (Witchlight)