Im a very hot, very smart man, it is every girls dream to catch me as a husband (im being sincere).
Whenever i see women i know theyre thinking about how hot i am.
And above that, i know how smart, kockey and wise i am to top that.
But still i am terrified of walking up to a table of women i dont know.
Its like, what the hell am i supposed to say to them?
"hi, im name-here and im horney? can i fokk you?
oh you want me to act as if im interested in your character first?"
Regardless of what i will try to make it look as if im doing, the truth will always be something i cant say.
So ill always be a phoney.. and i dont function well in phoney situations.. which is what the mating life always is.
So im an incredibly hot and smart man, who functins badly in this fake stupid mating life.. and thus i feel like my worth goes unappreciated for.
Normal?
this reality surely is sad... but it is a very genuine reality nonetheless and one which i have confirmed over and over again.
What do i have to offer?
You mean in terms of giving my work(giving flowers, remembering birthdays, paying for the dinner, being caring etc)?
Couldnt you just take the cash?
It comes out the same way.
There is nothing dumb about me, i just feel uncomfortable with dishonestly paying for sex, no matter what the form of payment is and the level of dishonesty it is paid with (pretention of being kind, polite etc).
The reality is that women want payment in exchange for sex.. more or less all of them.
The payment is most often in the form of the mans invested time and effort, but sometimes more honestly,
with his direct money payment.
I do not have the illusion manufacturing capabilities not to come to this conclusion.
Ladies... youre all whores, be it dishonest or not.
And how do you think those backwater fucks in Africa keep getting it on if there isn't anything at all to go around?
You don't have real self-esteem.
You have socially cultured "high self-esteem." I've been there. It's not real. It seems like you don't know who you are.
Your insecurities are a manefestation of your humanity. That you're NOT invincible.