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I didnt used to, but now I hate food.
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A while ago I was really into cocaine, and I didnt really eat while I was on it. A few years before that (when i was 15), I did have an eating disorder, so I know what it feels like. But when I quit blow and got over feeling sick, I realized that I hate food. I am always hungry, and no matter how much of anything I eat I will always be hungry at least half an hour later. My mother told me it was a gluten allergy, but that was before she knew I was getting over my addiction. It has been almost two months since I last used, but Im slowly running out of things to eat. not because I cant afford food, and not because I want to lose weight. Food does not make me sick, and it doesnt scare me. Its just boring. I feel like Ive eaten the same things my whole life, and they all get old after a few bites. Yesterday I got so hungry I was debating suicide. I cant talk to my mom because she says that Im spoiled, but I cant relate to that statement. I tried talking to my doctor, but she says she cant help. A nutritionist would tell me what to eat, but I already know that Ill get bored of whatever they suggest.

p.s. - I am sorry, I dont have an apostrophe key.
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EccentricWeird (3314)
2008-11-17 09:41:04
Have a veggie and lamb smoothie. Drinking nutritious supplements might be a half-decent fix without technically having to eat meals ever again.

Or, you can take nutritive supplements via syringe with hunger suppressants.
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Anasule (17389)
2008-11-18 02:15:36
The first thing you should be aware of is that it that cocaine takes over three months to actually leave the system (however interesting fact it can be detected in hair up to 25 years after taking it!)

Now the main issue your going to have as far as food is concerned is that when we eat the body produces endorphins a chemical that makes you happy.

Cocaine causes the mass production of dynorphin which is from the endorphins family however it produces crazy amounts of the stuff more than eating food ever would.

So you will get very little pleasure from eating, it will get better over time the body does an amazing job of repairing itself but that's talking six moths to a year.
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thecynic (16577)
2008-11-18 08:14:41
I can somewhat relate. I don't have a real ED, but sometimes I eat too much because of stress. Still I have a good weight, 120 lbs on a small 5'5 frame, so I don't really want to loose more than, like, 5-10 lbs. Having that said... I sometimes feel SO stuffed I would rather not eat at all. I do eat really small amounts of food during those days, drink a lot of orange juice and water... I often just feel like getting all the junk out of my system.

So I'd say it's normal... I'd advise on eating small amounts of food during the day. Have 5 to 7 small 'interesting' meals during the day and start jogging. You'll feel better! ^,^
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thecynic (16577)
2008-11-18 08:21:39
PS: I just want to add I understand it's very different for you since you used, but I just wanted to point out every one gets 'foodsick' once in a while for their own reasons. You should try to make your meals more 'interesting'. You have to eat to help your body get healthy again you know...
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mkaidd (18018)
2008-11-25 21:49:43
you don't have any particular favorites, maybe childhood favorites? have you experimented with flavors, spices, different restaurants, ethnic foods, recipes?

i have to admit i usually have a good appetite, so basically i feel bad for you and hope you can find something appealing! also it's important to eat regularly and not in spurts, and ideally something healthy... try foods high in fiber, they make you feel fuller.
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lwinnchick (23363)
2009-05-23 22:21:47
GO TO A DOCTOR ASAP!!!
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geckopaws (20496)
2009-07-29 15:56:42
Ok well you need some medical advice it seems but I think if you spiced up your foods like had exotic foods. I mean I wouldn't go as far as like eating bugs like they do in Taiwan. I would more suggest eating things you never ate before. Like I never get bored of food. But when I do I have something really exotic.
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lustish (30046)
2009-10-19 21:20:31
it's most likely a withdrawl symptom. craving coke makes you feel hungry.
i know that's what happened with me. i was so starved. i'd gone two weeks without eating during my last coke binge. and recent events have forced me to stop and even still i feel this intense hunger. metaphorically and literally.
i am not bashing coke. if you like it, do it, if you don't, then don't. but when you become addicted to it, you hate everything. you even hate the coke. coke is no longer fun. coke is a chore.
this is normal.
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lustish (30046)
2009-10-19 21:22:16
@: geckopaws
also, i would add that you're associating food with a time when you had no coke. coke made things more fun and you weren't eating while you were doing it.
therefore, lack of food is reminicent of fun.
you get the idea....
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