I've been wondering why I don't like being touched by my mother. We have a great relationship, she's like a friend to me, but I always try to refrain from even occasional physical contact with her.
I thought I was the kind who desperately needs their personal space, but I feel perfectly comfortable around my friends and sometimes even random people: I don't mind hugging, placing my head on someone's shoulder etc. Actually, there are two people I could physically contact 24/7, my best friend and my sweetheart. I have a need for human warmth and closeness. But, strangely, even if there was no one around but my mother in my time of need, I wouldn't turn to her for this kind of support. I just don't like it. And I don't get it.
Sometimes it's even acute dislike, something I could feel when being pushed by someone on the bus. Why?