Is it sad that when you go home you don't even feel comfortable in your own house? That when you talk to people, you know that it's a fake conversation. I don't get along with any of my siblings. I can't say I did too much in the past. My brother and I weren't ever really close. Unfortunately, I have no idea what it's like to have a big brother. He never looked out for me, never gave me advice, never helped with my homework or boy trouble. Instead he would pick on me about my weight, and who I liked, and he would leave me stranded so he could hang out with his friends. My mom always made excuses for him. Saying that he was a boy and that's how they are. He grew up drinking and driving on a regular basis, had quite a few dui's and nights in jail, he flunked out of college. I loaned him money, thinking that it was great my brother felt he could finally depend on me. He came home one night drunk, tried to strangle me. He had a party one night that I helped throw, made the snacks and everything, served his friends like a nice little hostess. His dog got sick and threw up on the floor, when I told him he started going off on me, telling me I thought I was better than everyone. He told me he wished I was dead, wished I would kill myself. My mom said he didn't mean it. Yeah right. He has said it more times than I can count. Same with my younger sister, I was always made to take care of her. Take her to school, pick her up, do this and do that. She was so rude and hateful to me. Said the same things, and my mom said she didn't mean it. My older sister, she got drunk, called me a n*gger loving w****.....yeah my boyfriend is black. So what? He treats me great. In fact, I probably would be dead if it wasn't for him. I have no one. He is the only person I can talk to, the only one who will listen. My parents don't even listen. They blame it on me. Take up for my siblings. Try to get me to apologize. Funny right? I wasn't allowed at my dad's bday party this year b/c my bro was going. I was always daddy's favorite. Not anymore. My heart is broken and it's hard realizing I don't have any family.
But I will say this, I'd be completely lost and maybe worse off than I can imagine if I didn't have him. Don't think that you have nothing. There has to be something you enjoy doing, or are great at. Focus on those things. Focus on making yourself a better person. I'm always here if you want to email me. It's nice having someone know what I'm going through.
About your boyfriend if he is good to you then that is great. But be careful and don't put your whole life into one person. Your life needs to revolve around you because if something would happen with you two, like so many couples, you don't need to feel like you have lost everything and possibly hurt yourself. Remember you are number one.
I really hope things work out for you.
I just don't have anyone in my family I can talk to.....except my half sister. We just don't talk everyday though.....Oh and you know what else helps??? My boyfriend and I are finally going to move in together officially into our own house so now I can get out of there....and take my dog!! She always threatens me.....come and get your dog and get the heck out. Yep.......she meaning my mom
Luckily he is my bestfriend....so I have him in my corner...and I'm really close with his family.
We already talked about the future in a sense that if he and I didn't work out, we'd all keep in touch. Because with them I have at least 3 new sisters, 2 brothers, a new cousin, and a wonderful mother......I love his mom. I know I treat her better than my own, but she is actually there for me and it makes a difference.
My family isn't into drugs.......but they are into alcohol. Someone is drinking everyday...I'm not big on alcohol. I do that once or twice a year thing, and then I sometimes even overdo it then. And that's not good, because I tend to wait until I get frustrated enough to let out all the things I've been holding in....
but since i posted awile ago, i have met this guy in my class that i get along great with, we both have the same warped sence of humer. we sit next to each other in almost every class, but now its summer and i dont get to see him except if he comes in to moms store and gets a shake with his friends and completly ignoors me. and i wait on them.
So the guy ignores you whenever he comes to your mom's store? What a little butthead. lol....I was gonna say to slip him your email address, but if he's going to ignore you whenever he's with his buddies, you shouldn't waste your time with him. He will only hurt you in the long run.....you never told me how old you were. So.....how old are you? And if you don't want to answer that, just tell me this, are you in highschool or middle school?
I had braces all through highschool and I hated it, but eventually learned to get over it...they weren't too bad. I didn't really go for all those wild colored bands like some people do. That's screaming, "Look at my teeth!" Or so I felt. Glasses, are they cute? Or do you wear those big bifocals? Glasses can actually add to your look, if you're wearing the right kind. If they take over your face, you prob won't get the look you were going for. There are a lot of different styles out there that are both sophisticated and sexy. Maybe you should check that out online. But stay sophisticated for your age!!! So you have frizzy, wavy hair? Mine is curly/wavy and forever frizzy. I used to wear it like that all the time in school. If I knew then what I know now I might have felt better about my hair. I straighten it now. I wash it, and make sure you use a good shampoo...don't use anything that says frizz control cuz it will make your hair really oily after awhile. I just don't like it for my hair....
So I wash it, I leave it to air dry for an hour or so...unless I wear it wet to bed, then I blow dry it, and I brush it out while I'm blow drying...then I straighten it. I do the bottom layer of my hair first and work my way up to the top. That's another thing, you should ask your hairstylist what style would look good for your face shape. I keep mine long with short layers, sometimes long....
After I straighten it, I curl the ends with a thick barreled curling iron....and my hair stays like that for 2 days. On the second day I might do some touchups, but it still has curl.
I know it seems like a lot, but it doesn't take too long. And it makes my hair feel soft and look very healthy. Just some ideas for you....Oh and for the acne...what do you use for your face? Noxema is good if you don't want to spend the money for proactiv....and try drinking more water...for some reason it can make a pimple magically disappear if you drink enough of it. Let me know what you think.