Is it sad that when you go home you don't even feel comfortable in your own house? That when you talk to people, you know that it's a fake conversation. I don't get along with any of my siblings. I can't say I did too much in the past. My brother and I weren't ever really close. Unfortunately, I have no idea what it's like to have a big brother. He never looked out for me, never gave me advice, never helped with my homework or boy trouble. Instead he would pick on me about my weight, and who I liked, and he would leave me stranded so he could hang out with his friends. My mom always made excuses for him. Saying that he was a boy and that's how they are. He grew up drinking and driving on a regular basis, had quite a few dui's and nights in jail, he flunked out of college. I loaned him money, thinking that it was great my brother felt he could finally depend on me. He came home one night drunk, tried to strangle me. He had a party one night that I helped throw, made the snacks and everything, served his friends like a nice little hostess. His dog got sick and threw up on the floor, when I told him he started going off on me, telling me I thought I was better than everyone. He told me he wished I was dead, wished I would kill myself. My mom said he didn't mean it. Yeah right. He has said it more times than I can count. Same with my younger sister, I was always made to take care of her. Take her to school, pick her up, do this and do that. She was so rude and hateful to me. Said the same things, and my mom said she didn't mean it. My older sister, she got drunk, called me a n*gger loving w****.....yeah my boyfriend is black. So what? He treats me great. In fact, I probably would be dead if it wasn't for him. I have no one. He is the only person I can talk to, the only one who will listen. My parents don't even listen. They blame it on me. Take up for my siblings. Try to get me to apologize. Funny right? I wasn't allowed at my dad's bday party this year b/c my bro was going. I was always daddy's favorite. Not anymore. My heart is broken and it's hard realizing I don't have any family.