I Freaked Out After Getting High

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Sorry it's so long but..

I've been smoking for about 3 months and I've never had any freak-outs or any problems with it.

Yesterday, I had a 'j'. My boyfriend of 10 months and 2 of my friends (1 who I've never smoked with before but I'm close with) went to an offroading spot (I've been there at least 7 or 8 times), to smoke it.

I took about 3 or 4 big hits (my usual) and everything was fine. We were laughing and joking around and having a really good time. We all get out of the car to walk around and I lean on the car door. All of the sudden it feels like I'm 'blacking out' (the feeling after you stand up way too fast) only 100 times worse.

Everything around me had flashing gray dots. There was pinestraw around the bottom of trees that had a red-ish color. The pinestraw on the trees was a BRIGHT neon green. The sky and ground seemed really far away, and had gray dots (about the size of yogo's) everywhere. It felt like I was dying and I began to feel like I didn't exist. I kept calling for my boyfriend to hold me. He called for my friend to throw him the blanket in his car (he was high too so it was really hard for him to keep it together). He held me and tried to get me to walk over to a clear spot and lay down but I couldn't pick up my legs and walk so I fell down and sat until everything had passed.

After I'd calmed down a bit (I had a terrible headache, in a cold sweat, and was still sitting on the ground) I was watching my friends and boyfriend by the car talking. It began to feel like I was watching a tv show and that's the only way I knew them (like they didn't really exist other than that tv show) and I began to freak out but I breathed deeply and felt okay.

Right before I had that freak-out I felt really small. Extremely small. It was like my mind kept expanding outside of this galaxy and into the universe and I compared myself in size. I felt like I didn't exist and I was nothing but a near particle in something bigger than anyone could ever imagine.

I was wearing a black, short-sleeve turtleneck and it was pretty hot out. So maybe I just got too hot or something? I'd smoked the exact same stuff two nights before and nothing went wrong so it wasn't laced or anything. I had the 'j' packed really well so maybe I just smoked too much too quick? I don't know.. Just please give me advice because I'm terrified to smoke again in fear that it'll happen again. And it's not fun feeling like you're dying.