there is this girl i know and every time i am around her i get really depressed, a feeling comes over me like i want to be around her forever because she is so cute
i asked her out and she said no but i still like to be around her, i also can't help but just stare at her, but i don't because that would be awkward so instead i try to ignore her so it doesn't look like i am obsessed with her
then when i leave i start thinking about killing myself and the feeling lasts for about a couple weeks, i sometimes lay on the floor and just cry for about 10 minutes thinking about her, i usually plan out my suicide and almost do it, until my depression goes away
i'm okay now because i haven't seen her for a while but i know if i'm around her again i will get super depressed and want to kill myself again
the weird part is that i actually miss the feeling i get around this girl and the depression, it just kind of feels magical and getting drunk and planning my suicide just gives me a kind of euphoric high, without this feeling my life is bland and boring, and i don't even feel like killing myself anymore which sucks
is it normal to feel this way?
Growing up, I felt this way a few times about a certain girl and as much as you don't believe it and as cheesy as it sounds the fact remains there WILL be more girls!
But I also know that knowing this won't help because you have your heart set on this girl. Maybe, MAYBE you still have a chance with her, so I'm not saying you should give up on her, just don't ignore all the other girls out there!
Concentrate on doing something that you like and keeps your mind busy and believe me it WILL get better with time.
whew, can't believe i wrote all that piss but there you have it. Today's wisdom from King Spammy.
@asskicker - I felt that way about your mother too until I realized she had testicles bigger than bowling balls. That kind of took the fun out of it all. Now why the hell don't you just run off and pork a wombat or something.
As far as the others are concerned, I'm certain the flock will return. Gretchen's waiting for me in the back, with her legs spread like and open roast beef sandwich. So, later on lads, and please, carry on for Spammy.
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I like this one girl too she is my friend I haven't asked her out before but...sometimes when I leave from her house I hope to get hit or hurt in some way that will make her notice me more something to get us closer...you know to make her care about me...yeah I still think that is normal JUST DONT KILL YOURSELF man, killing yourself is going...way to far
Going through the same thing right now.
It's really normal, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Mines never gotten to the point where i've wanted to kill myself, but I have drank alchohol because of how bad the feelings were. It'll go away, just tell yourself she's ugly and a b*tch and you'll find someone better. and hopefully it will happen