For as long as I can remember I have hated and dreaded my birthday. I think its because I make a big deal out of everyone else's by always trying to remember and call/send gift on that exact day, but it doesn't seem like I ever feel satisfied when my own birthday comes by. I could have 4 or 5 birthday messages but be sad because I have like a lot more friends that should have remembered! Or for example I will get a few emails, but will be hurt I didn't get more from people that know its my bday or that they just texted and didn't call! It makes me feel selfish and ungrateful but that's just how I feel. I am to the point where I try to pretend its not my birthday or make plans to be alone/go away. Weird or what? I hate to say it, but having my birthday just make me feel unpopular! At the same time I feel like if I go around reminding people that its my bday that it will just be fake responses or forcing people to say happy birthday. Its almost like I am testing people and then get sad every year it seems like not everyone remembered--even though I should be happy some people did!!! I can't stand that I am so selfish like this!
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maybe you could send out an announcement about some kind of birthday get-together... so you can do something fun the day of and maybe get some more messages too even if some people can't come. something casual like coffee maybe.
its depresses me cos its makes me think about death and my mortality
lol i no that sounds wierd but i really f###ing hate my birthday
your not alone!!!
and the presents never live up 2 my expectations lol
Honestly, there were the best gift I could always gets on my life!
Seriously, you are not crazy, I was thinking that I was some kind of freak, 'cause guess what?
I'm doing 18, and I'm currently living in France, so all should be perfect right?
But noooooo, I'm having a SHITTIIIING time, really, one of the worst, any one in this country knows how speak or even makes a effort, to try to speak a little of english, I doesn't understeand anything, and now I'm legally majeur, so I can't kill anyone anymore!!!LOL..
But oh,I'm so miserable, that I was in google searching this: WHY I HATE MY BIRTHDAY?
Normally, I'm always excited to do a new age, a new year, and all this fucking things, but normally and I don't know why,when the Bday, finnaly cames, I'm all sad, and depressive...
Even, when I was doing 16, and had a huge party, I still hate my birthday!!!
But this year, were my 18, you know...So, I was with a lot of hopes and dreams for this age, 'cause in europe you can drink with 18, and all, but here I'm in a forum, descovering that I AM NORMALLLLL!!!!
Even, when I'm checking my facebook,my Msn, my Skype, my e-mail, my phone, and all the other technologies that exist in the world!
And asking myself, why my father, my best friend, or the boy that I like (which by the way, had a bithday last week, and I'd send a texte to him!) didn't call...