i am so glad i found this site. people think i'm a freak because i don't like my own mother. truth is, i hate her. never liked her. can't stand her ugly face, her voice, the way she acts. she is extremely unintelligent. she thinks aliens abducted her. she grosses me out. she trapped my dad by getting pregnant. i even found my favorite children's book in my dad's basement and noticed that a little me had crossed out all the "mommys" and wrote in dad. i love me dad, adored his mother (rip) hate her. i also hate her mother. she is a cold hearted bitch that never wanted to know me or do shit for me and makes me feel uncomfortable. some of her stunts: losing custody of my older brother before i born for allowing the bible study cult she was living with to beat him with tree branches (at the age of 3), taking no interest in my school, not retaining a word i have ever said, leaving me alone for the night as a child while my dad works so she can have an affair, admitting to me she thought a friend of mine was prettier than me when i was a little girl, shafting me on back to school clothes but always buying herself a fresh new ugly top, leaving my dad and trying to force us out of our home on christmas time after agreeing we could keep the house she didn't pay her fair share for, sending her boyfriend's daughters to college and footing the bill for their wedding on her dime while i suffer and struggle in minimum wage hell, blowing me off on my birthday after not seeing me for a year, promising me her car only to give it to someone else while i drive a deathtrap (she did this twice), driving over an hour every month to see her mother who lives a town away from me and not bothering to make plans with me ever while she's in the state. i could go on. i feel shame that i came from this disgusting and dumb woman.
Thank you for sharing and you have my sympathies! I think that a lot of people just do not get it that some of us survived our early years with mothers who absolutely failed us! Is is sometimes almost like they think when you say that forbidden thing, "I hate my mother!," that in their little brains it seems you are actually saying that you hate motherhood and all mothers including their mothers. Seeing this page makes me feel less alone because I would really like to not hate my mother, but, sadly, she has more or less forced me to do so in her failures as a mother and as a human being.~Mike
I hate my mother.
← Return to post