I hate myself. I was not like this before and I don't know how to go back. I use to have morals and boundaries, now I don't care enough to have them. I got married to young, dropped out of school, won't get a job, and sit on my ass wasting away. I want to better myself, but I just hate myself so much I don't see the point of even trying. I honestly think I'm a sad excuse for a human being and wish I would drop dead. How do I get out of this state?

okay so you seem depressed.
symptoms are natures warnings. contrary to popular believe depression is a symptom, not the disease.
i suggest looking inside for answers.
I am not married and i tell you i feel lonely at times. you would too if you weren't married.
I think life has pros and cons, its your choice which things you focus on and how you use your time.
seek help