i'm high on lortabs

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Well, I hope you enjoy your downhill spiral, it's a sad thing to hear somebody talk like that. I assume you were high on drugs when you piled up your motorcycle to. I feel sorry for you get some help before it's to late. By the way your damn lucky to be alive as it is.

@gizzie

actually i was 100% sober when i crashed, i just wasn't paying enough attention to the car in front of me, traffic slowed down and i was still doing around 75ish, when i looked up i had about 2 seconds before i slammed into the car in front of me, so i swerved hard left and slammed on the brakes and missed the car, that's when i dropped the bike and skid

if i was high i would be in jail right now

try morphine

@ flikr

It sounds like you cheated death to me. I just wonder why have decided to go on a drug binge. Drugs are the devils poison, and they will do nothing but bring you down. I like you and think you should re-think your thoughts on where you want to go in this life.

Drugs will do nothing but destroy your life!!

@quadmaster

i gave up on life a long time ago, no one understands my pain

i have severe social anxiety and the girl that i am in love with has met some other guy and is planning on marrying him, i cry every night just thinking about her

i already have my death all planned out, it's going to be romantic and tragic, but first i want to damage my body with drugs because i know I'm going to be dead anyways

Why would you want to do that? Before you know it, you'll be much older with nothing to show for it. Don't waste your life and worthless crap.

I'm assuming the age you put on your profile (19) is your actual age. It's a damn shame to here somebody so young talk like this, you have your whole life ahead of you. Just because you are heartbroken over a girl is no excuse to go on a suicide mission. fkikr seriously why don't you talk to your parents about this or get some counseling?

You can get past this. I believe if something is met to be it will happen and obviously this was'nt, but it's not the end of the world there is somebody out there for you.

@ flikr

I have suffered from social anxiety myself, I get nervous when getting around large groups of people I don't know. What I do know is that they have medication to treat this condition. You should tell your doctor about this, he can help.

This site has kinda went to shit I mean when you press the reply button to respond to a certian person and that dont work. That and the chat room is gone.

Well shit man, becoming that bad of a drug addict, isn't too good of a choice. But we all make decisions on our own. So, since I know I can't change your mind, I'll just give you some good ideas. Ecstasy sounds like a grand idea since you have a good sound system. Hopefully, you won't be driving around. Not too fun. Just get a bunch of glow sticks. And drink at least a gallon of water. Keep yourself hydrated. Your insides will basically melt if you don't.

Hey gizzy me ole mucker. Hows trix? Hope alls well with you and ures :)

yea I c wat ya mean giz. I hit the reply to you and it just entered a normal post instead of @gizzie :(

@Nearly

Oh hey "Trix" is still turning tricks, but I do get an occasional bow job.

Glad to see you back m8! As you know there has been a lot of change around here and I for one think Udi screwed this website up.

What has really changed? We still have all these damn minors in here, Its just fucked up!

What has changed? We have no chatroom,it takes at least one day to post a story,and there is something going on with text getting really small to the point that you can't read it.

Yeah Udi has fixed the reply button problem that is a good start. But I don't understand why he keeps banning good contributors like CabbyHubby for example. Oh well I will probably be next.

He even banned JanIam and then retracted it. Jan never did anything wrong on this website and gets banned, WTF is up with that?

try blueberrys
zanex
or pineapple dro...its like really strong weed that smells and tastes like pineapple

i don't know what drug you should take flikr. What are all the other emos taking? just follow their lead.

janiam was banned? wtf for?

maybe she got confused with the "bad janiam" that was on for a while.

the only thing flikr would need meds for is emo-itis. and he's probably faking the whole thing just because he likes emo girls.

JanIam was banned for being quote "to chatty and off topic" if you banned everybody in here that is guilty of that, there wouldn't be a poster left in here. Jan was completely flabbergasted when she emailed him because she could not login and the statement above is more or less what she got in return. He did lift the ban but warned her about being off topic. I know Jan wrote him a very spirited response to his email and was so infuriated about the situation she chose not to return. I have asked her to reconsider but to no avail. She was a good friend on here and a great contributor, and I think Udi made a big mistake in banning Jan to start with.

Yeah my comments to Flixr are not recent, and I have since realized that he is probably just faking the whole thing. When people talk like this, I tend to take it seriously because I had a good friend commit suicide.

i agree jan was one of the most helpful posters here and a great person and an accomplished writer as well. Hell, if i were her i would not take it so hard or personally at all. too bad. i hope she comes back.

sorry about your friend. what a tragic thing to happen. was your friend depressed?

Yeah her poetic talents were brought up in that email from Udi and he told her that they would be better served on a different website. The great thing that Udi has done is create the knew forum a place where we can post pretty much anything we want it really is a great addition I would spend more time in there, but I just don't have a lot of time on my hands. I did inform Jan of the new forum and asked her to join, she said she would look into it, but I have yet to see her on it.

Well, on the plus side we are getting more members in here the place has been really quite boring. I must admit I do miss the old IIN.

Yeah he had problems with depression his whole life, and he started taking drugs and alcohol to fight his depression and it made it worse and he eventually killed himself. Suicide is a very sad thing it is the survivors that suffer the most (family, friends, co-workers) this kind of thing is definitely nothing to joke about.

i'm starting to like the new iin, in fact now i don't like the old iin anymore

it's true i do love emo girls

my old screenname was of course banned everything i had ever written was erased from this site. same thing for spamjavelin, gretchen, stargirl, the racist pooltoy and many other. All completely justified of course.

but janiam was the quintessential "voice of reason", i always thought. more people of her caliber would make this a much better site. Not to mention that she was no more guilty of off topic then say Nearly, who i dont believe was banned and did not have his account deleted. and sweetangel was untouched!!!

So i agree that Udi was foolish or at least wrong to ban her.

but i think the reason she is not back is that she nearly went insane while posting here. It began to get to her. I would bet that's more the issue with her then her being angry or resentful about what happened. but i could be wrong.

yes it is so obvious that drugs and alcohol do not fight depression, they just very temporarily stave it off and then make it much much worse.

did your friend have a wife and kids?

Yeah you are right Flikr the new IIN is a better place now at least you don't have all the stupid flame wars going on anymore. So seriously are you still abusing your body with drugs? Are you still planing on abusing Illegal substances until your (liver, kidneys, heart) or something gives out because you don't want to live any longer or is this all just a bunch of bullshit?

Yeah you are right Nearly was not banned he quit posting because he could not get any response from Udi as to what he was going to do about the "minor" problem on here. I really don't know what Udi can do about this anyway I don't see any way to stop underage posters from coming on here he has done everything he can do with what is written in the terms and conditions. I also know he has banned a lot of underage users, and I believe he has a moderator looking into this problem occasionally at best.

Yeah you could be right she may have just got sick of all the bullshit in here and decided to give it up. I do think that email from UDI actually hurt her more deeply then either you or me might know. I just got that feeling.

yeah, i know, and that's what half the stuff you write on this site is all about - you trying to snag some emo babe who's going to see you as the cool emo man of her dreams.

don't think i don't right through you flik..like a pane of fucking glass i do.

don't believe a word this kid says..he doesnt do drugs. remember when he admitted that 90 percent of what he says here are lies? lol. i remember he said that to stargirl.

No he didn't...Thank God! He did have a mom and dad and brother and two sisters and the whole thing took quite a toll on their family. He never really told anybody what his planned to kill himself, he just did it. They had to have a closed casket at his funeral because of obvious reasons and the whole thing was quite traumatic. I really prefer not to discuss it anymore it brings back bad memories.

I guess I never paid real close attention to his comments, or I guess I would have known it was a bunch of bullshit from the start. Oh well I know now.

Hey, did you notice Slackjawedyokel is back?

Just so you know I wrote you a response to your question about Italian Greyhounds on that "Decoding Women" story.

You know Pooltoy what I can't figure out is why you got your username banned, and I didn't or someone like Cabicunt70 what the hell is going on with this shit?

probably people who were heavily involved in flame wars and had a lot of stories with their names in them were banned.

both you and cabinet have wisely avoided that type of crap.

you may be right about her getting hurt, especially if udi personally wrote her a letter directly addressed to her(and talking about her specifically).

i could see how it could not only hurt her, but creep her out in a way. I know it would creep me out, as if someone i really didn't know had been watching and evaluating me.

Yeah the longest flame war I ever got into was with Slackjawedyokel and that was an ongoing thing for several months. Even so I have had my fair share of others.

I still think your banning and several others was uncalled for. Hey, I was wondering how it is you know you have been banned? I know the obvious if all your comments are erased then duh your banned but I have seen where people have been banned and their comments remain.

i think there's 1)banning, 2)banning and having your comments deleted, and then there is 3)banning and having your account deleted.

yes i do recall your flame war with sjy. I also remember you completely making him look like a complete cuntstain. lol, i found it very entertaining. in fact, i was reading some of those posts just recently.

yes i did see he was back. i've already called him a complete pussy.

Pooly there is no sense in even starting another flame war in here all that's going to happen is there is going to be more banning going on. Just let Slackass keep calling everybody handwankers and virgins. Who gives a shit? just ignore it. I know I need to practice what I preach, but sometimes you just have got to challenge somebodys ignorance.

He certainly can be a complete cunt and watch out, he likes to attack with multiple usernames.

multiple names AND multiple genders.

Yeah watch out for MM2184 shes a, he. LOL!

dont do it. it sounds like a lot of fun, but then you actually get addicted to something and it sucks dick.

I suffered from social anxiety at your age too, drugs and grog really helped me get over it, I used to just sit at home doing nothing just wishing that i had some friends. now im a mentaly retarted 32yo living in extreme poverty with plenty of drop kick loser friends that i wish would just leave me the fuck alone and stop stealing my shit.

thats exactly how i feel. :

You must be joking, because if you are not, I feel very bad that any person can have an attitude like this. You WANT a gateway drug? Again, joking or you are seriously f'ed up.

You are so young, everyone out there has a soul mate, you just have to give that soul mate time to find you. If you messed up or dead how will they ever know you. One girl hurt you, but guess what, I've been hurt a hundred times before and I'm still here and I'm still clean. I want to live my life soberly, so I won't miss my soul mate and the really important things in life. I really hope that you change the way you feel soon, before it's too late. I know someone who did what you're planning on doing right now over a girl and he regrets that and he wishes that there was a way he could turn his stuff around and be the person he used to be. Everyone needs love and the girl that you are pining over never loved you or she would have stuck by you. Please just look at all the good things in life that you will be missing if you go on this course that you're planning. I was in the hospital with a brain tumor in March, it was a scary and traumatic thing that I went through, but I'm here and alive and I thank God everyday for the miracle that he's given. Turn things over to him and I promise you that you will want to live and stay clean so you won't miss anything really important. I pray for you that you find the path to the light and not the darkness. Please don't let this get you down, fight to overcome this urge that you have and move on to a better life. When I was in the hospital, I felt good b/c I was getting Morphine and it made me feel wonderful, but for stuff like is fine in a hospital environment, but once you're home, get off it, you don't need it anymore. Please let me know if my comment will be able to help you in any way.

Its the painkillers and trauma that makes you think this.

wow.

You got to be kidding me

I'm a clinical drug counsellor and you want to willingly start using drugs. It's people like you who add to the overburdened health care system. You can lose everything within a month if you get hooked on hard drugs like crack cocaine, heroin, Crystal meth, Oxycontin. What could possibly be going on in your brain to want such a thing.

Are you not receiving enough gratification and fullfillment in your life. Here's a suggestion to make it easier and less painfull; get a gun and shoot yourself because, whether or not you want to admit it (and I'm witness to many hard core addicts) doing drugs is a long drawn out death.