My ex-boyfriend does not love me. He doesn't even live in the same town anymore. But whenever he is in town to see his parents, I call him, demand he sees me, demand he sleeps with me, and neither of us talk until he is in town again. I cry because he sleeps with me and then leaves. But I continually initiate the same process that leaves me depressed and alone. We've been split for over a year and I still try(?) and make something work between us, even if it's just meaningless sex for him.
Merry Christmas. xx