I Might Kill Myself Over Something Stupid One Day

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you need a good friend to share these feelings with. and i'm sure your parents would rather have you on this earth gay than not at all sweetie

yea, its probably justt he gay thing taht makes you wanna kill yourself.. there is always one thing that sticks to the back of your head that makes you wanna die and amplifies eevrything else

Be stronger than things. If life is too hard, start a new. Move out of your parents' when you have the chance, if they still don't accept you. If they won't support you, what good are they? Just love them because they gave life to you, but don't let them take the life AWAY from you. Same with school, if everyone else can do it, why can't you?
Fight fight fight!

If one day, when they find out, they don't accept you, that's their problem, unfortunately. You don't need the approval of others to live!

I know that my family will probably be disgusted with me for not being straight as an arrow and for not wanting to marry when I'm older or have kids and...so the list goes on. It sucks.

The reason why I clicked on this story is because I relate with the title very much. My suicidal thoughts aren't directly related to my sexuality though - I just go sort of crazy sometimes and I'm worried that some day, I'll do something stupid and reckless that can't be undone. I'm scared about the stress that awaits me too, I guess. I often don't want to think about it. I'm scared that I'll end up living as a hermit because of this, a disappointment to everybody.

You can't stop the thoughts of suicide in their tracks, but then, that's all they are: thoughts. It's a symptom of your stress. Take each day at a time. When the things which you speak of come about, you will be better equipped to deal with them. For now, all you can do is deal with the present.

Listen I have been through some really rough times. I was a single mom with mixed race children, my family and the fathers family would not accept me or my children. the fathers left. There was no one to care. I have felt the way you feel. Please be strong for now. Move from your parents house. The shame and sadness you are feeling is not yours to hold it belongs to others. Learn to put that feeling in its place. Use positive self talk "I am worthy of respect and these feelings that others have forced on me are not respectful." I will remind myself to change the subject and think more positive thoughts." Then think of some nice things you can say instead, like " I am a good person and I deserve respect."Think "I will be proud of myself and strong." "I will keep trying so that I can be stronger and stronger." Then treat yourself with respect and With practice this tactic should actually work. It is teaching you to be your own best friend. If your friend were going through this what would you say to them? You would probably give that friend some of the same advice you are reading and hearing today. Do this for yourself. Treat yourself as an actual friend. Practice doing this. Stick up for your self in your thoughts. Pretty soon it will be natural to think in a more positive way. Find a Gay support group, online or in person, make sure you like it, check it out for awhile, if you like, good, if not find another. Keep trying. Get yourself an apartment or a room near a Large Liberal University with graduate students, (because they are more reliable) and start putting yourself through college,slowly. Left leaning university towns like Berkeley will be more friendly to you and you will be able to make many good positive friends and remember if they aren't doing positive things you can't afford to carry them as friends. There is probably a Gay support group on many college and university campuses. Check this group out. If it makes you welcome and comfortable consider attending this school. Make good choices and take care of yourself. You are worth everything good and you can go for it. If you think you feel too bad to do it, think about how you might feel out of the environment that you are in now and in a more positive environment.
-from an understanding and loving mom

Seems better than thinking about it so much that you can't think of anything else. People are learning to accept, they seem to even be going overboard. Your time will come... hopefully you can wait that long. Otherwise, you'll need to find something to keep you happy. There's a supplement called 5-htp (if you can't find it then go for tryptophan) that helps to raise serotonin levels. Low serotonin levels cause you to feel depressed and can also cause mood swings. I definitely recommend it as a completely legal, mild antidepressant. The only downside is nausea if you take a lot. Take it whenever you feel bad, and it'll help. Also helps with mental clarity and going to sleep. Depending on your weight, try 50mg or 100mg.

totally normal! but please do not try suicide, wait til ur older to tell your parents you are gay so that they know its not some phase you are going through.

i hope you are reading these because you need to..they seem helpfull..

stay healthy and focused on your school work because right now in your life that is the number 1 thing to worry about..it will be over before you know it.

~ash

eventually u have to tell ur parents and if they dont accept u then it seems like they only like u for wut they want u to be and do:wut ever they want u to be and do and dats not cool. if ur gonna kill urself then do it in a stylistic way dats epic, naw jk dont do it dude. there are ppl who care about u and society is retarded cuz they cant learn to accept ppl for who they are. ppl r pricks when it comes to dat