I don't know where to start, but I guess the problem is I never want to go anywhere or do anything... I don't feel depressed, or lonely or anything like that. I simply hate going anywhere, even if it's on a date, or to the mall, or to the beach with my friends. I make up excuses so people will think I'm busy. I get panic attacks when I go out, but never at home. I realize I'm wasting my life, I'm 25 and I should be out having fun... I always think that events sound fun, as long as they're tomorrow or the next day or next week, but as soon as it comes down to actually going, I always want to cancel. I haven't left my house in three days, and I'm in my pajamas at 5 PM... I've been working over the computer and making money doing graphic design remotely, but I think I'm getting worse. I had a demanding job up until a month ago, and a boyfriend of 6 years up until about the same time... Since then I have just wanted to stay home and do nothing, I don't want to get fat or lazy or boring, but I just have no desire to leave the house, and it seems when I leave now, I start to feel sick, get headaches and feel nauseous... I guess it's because I don't feel comfortable outside and I probably don't breathe enough when I'm nervous or something. I was on antidepressants for 8 years for Anxiety disorder, and went off a few years ago, I thought I was better but maybe I'm not... Does anyone else feel like this? Strange exception to this rule, while I hate crowded restaurants and anyplace that smells like food, I like crowds like at amusement parks, fairs and raves... I feel comfortable there. But a quiet dinner with friends? I feel like everyone's watching me and I can't wait to leave. :( I guess I'm a freak.