I read with pens and carry them wherever I go. http://isitnormal.com/story/i-read-with-pens-and-carry-them-wherever-i-go-29952/ I think it's just a habit that you've formed during your life. It's not bad or anything, I mean I hate when I'm out and I don't have a pen with me. But not to the extent that you do. But if this is a thing that is affecting your life in a bad way like the panic attack, maybe you should speak with a mental health professional. I'm not positive, but this behavior seems linked to OCD. http://isitnormal.com/story/i-read-with-pens-and-carry-them-wherever-i-go-29952/#comment-295486 2009-06-16 15:03:06