Like what's written on the title, I'm a girl. I consider myself straight even though I sometimes have girl crushes. I never thought I was confused before because I can never be in a relationship with another woman. For me, the thought of being in a relationship with another woman is just so unappealing. I even sometimes consider it disgusting (I'm not homophobic. Sorry, I'm not trying to offend anyone, it's just how I feel). Anyway, I've always considered myself straight because of a lot of reasons.
And then came her. I met her a few years back and before I didn't think of her so much. She's not beautiful, she's okay. She's shorter than me. She's older too. She's my tutor and she would always come over and teach me every saturday for 3-4 hours. Recently, I realized that I like her. She's amazingly smart and since she tutors me a lot. I realized that she's really cute. She's such a girly girl and she's kind and yeah. I feel like she's perfect. I just don't understand why she doesn't have a boyfriend. I mean, if I was a guy I would probably ask her to marry me, not date me. I keep thinking about her, it's creeping me out. I like her so much. It's the same feeling I get when I'm in love with a guy. I have never felt this way before. I'm not gay, I don't want any sexual relations with any other woman, but with her you know, I don't mind being a lesbian. And it's really creeping me out. I've never ever felt this way before, ever.
By the way, I'm 22. I dunno if that's gonna help.
And then came her. I met her a few years back and before I didn't think of her so much. She's not beautiful, she's okay. She's shorter than me. She's older too. She's my tutor and she would always come over and teach me every saturday for 3-4 hours. Recently, I realized that I like her. She's amazingly smart and since she tutors me a lot. I realized that she's really cute. She's such a girly girl and she's kind and yeah. I feel like she's perfect. I just don't understand why she doesn't have a boyfriend. I mean, if I was a guy I would probably ask her to marry me, not date me. I keep thinking about her, it's creeping me out. I like her so much. It's the same feeling I get when I'm in love with a guy. I have never felt this way before. I'm not gay, I don't want any sexual relations with any other woman, but with her you know, I don't mind being a lesbian. And it's really creeping me out. I've never ever felt this way before, ever.
By the way, I'm 22. I dunno if that's gonna help.
Maybe try to clear the stress before you tell her about your feelings.
Some boys love boys and want to fuck boys.
Some girls love girls and want to fuck girls.
We know this, yes? This is common knowledge now. Sexuality is a spectrum, there are bisexual, bicurials also known as bananas, lesbeans, gaydem, pan-oramic-sexuals that'll fall for and do anything visible to the human eye, a-sexuals who don't want to touch anyone down below including themselves, and the straighties who are only North to South.
Some people can be romantically interested in the same sex but not sexually, others can only be sexually interested in the same sex not romantically. OP you've just stumbled upon a girl who defied your previous assumption that you were straight. That's all. You fancy the knickers off her and want to marry her.
Don't tell your tutor anything. S he may feel the same way, but it's more likely that she doesn't. Then you'll both have all sorts of problems that you neither want nor need.
I've said I'd marry certain female musicians before, because I think they're that good. I'm not sure what this means either. I used to jolt when I heard their voices, & not be able to concentrate on anything while their cds were playing, & this still happens.
They're older than me too, & I wouldn't say they were the best-looking women in the world, but then I’m not stunning either. I wouldn't say all this to someone who didn't know me well.
I feel like fate is playing a game on me - I remember this lesbian telling me how she felt about me some 2 years ago. I told her that I don't ever want to be in a relationship with a woman and that I was sorry. She cried over me which I thought was really stupid. Now, I understand :((((((
The thing that I am worried about is that you are still relatively young and therefore might not be able to assess properly why you are so attracted to this woman.
Have you been in a longer-term relationship before? And if so, do you feel the same way about this woman than you felt when meeting your ex?
Also, if you really feel love and attraction towards this woman I would first try to find out what her general sexual preferences are, as well as her current relationship situation ( by means of facebook, common acquaintances). Especially in your situation this is not stalking or creepy but just making sure that if you at one point decide to take the step and confess your feelings you will not be confronted by social difficulties from her side.
And well, I've only had one boyfriend before but I was with him for 6 years and I loved him a lot. I don't like flings, even when I was still a teen, I never went out with guys whom I knew I wouldn't have strong feelings for. But you're right, I am confused. I don't want to like her because of the simple fact that she's a girl. But I just do. The feeling that I felt when I first found out that I loved my ex is the same thing that I feel about her now.
And yeah, I have checked her facebook. I know that she's straight and doesn't have a boyfriend. I feel like she won't be interested if I tell her my feelings because of her being straight.
And yeah I understood the first time XD