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I think, therefore, I am. Disturbing thoughts.
Cogito, ergo, sum. That famous quote of "I think, therefore, I am."
That's the only way I can explain what I'm going through. Am i seriously the only person who's ever had these thoughts BESIDES rene descartes?? and i don't think descartes felt remorse like i do! or disturbing-ness. or however you say it.
I think. I know that. Because i'm doing it right now. I can have private thoughts without others knowing. (At least, to my knowledge, they don't know). For example, if i think "I like the color magenta the best" even though i've told everyone else my favorite color is blue, i'm the only one who knows. and God, if you believe in Him/Them. Whatever.
So i know that I, at least, exist. because i can think. i exist. like descartes says in his philosophy, the very fact that there is something there TO doubt, proves that he exists. The same goes for me.
but what descartes is also implying is that no one else can be proven to exist. it's just you. you and your lonesome self on this world, with no proof one way or the other if there is a God, or even another being anywhere at all in space and time.
and that's what gets me. if that is so true, i'm completely and utterly alone. and it's the worst feeling i've ever felt.
i've tried blocking these thoughts since i first had these philisophical thoughts (Which, surprisingly, didn't stem from cogito, ergo, sum, at first. they simply ended up being the same.) but nothing works. sure i can think about something else.
but the truth is inevitable. i'm alone. or at least there's the possibility i could be alone.
i want to stop having these horrifying thoughts. and find out what the F*CK is wrong with me because i was perfectly capable of going through a day without thinking "wow. alone. again. in the universe. not just alone at home. or alone in the state. or on earth. or in the universe, but maybe heaven too. everywhere. there's no one. alone." about a month ago.
h-e-l-p.
That's the only way I can explain what I'm going through. Am i seriously the only person who's ever had these thoughts BESIDES rene descartes?? and i don't think descartes felt remorse like i do! or disturbing-ness. or however you say it.
I think. I know that. Because i'm doing it right now. I can have private thoughts without others knowing. (At least, to my knowledge, they don't know). For example, if i think "I like the color magenta the best" even though i've told everyone else my favorite color is blue, i'm the only one who knows. and God, if you believe in Him/Them. Whatever.
So i know that I, at least, exist. because i can think. i exist. like descartes says in his philosophy, the very fact that there is something there TO doubt, proves that he exists. The same goes for me.
but what descartes is also implying is that no one else can be proven to exist. it's just you. you and your lonesome self on this world, with no proof one way or the other if there is a God, or even another being anywhere at all in space and time.
and that's what gets me. if that is so true, i'm completely and utterly alone. and it's the worst feeling i've ever felt.
i've tried blocking these thoughts since i first had these philisophical thoughts (Which, surprisingly, didn't stem from cogito, ergo, sum, at first. they simply ended up being the same.) but nothing works. sure i can think about something else.
but the truth is inevitable. i'm alone. or at least there's the possibility i could be alone.
i want to stop having these horrifying thoughts. and find out what the F*CK is wrong with me because i was perfectly capable of going through a day without thinking "wow. alone. again. in the universe. not just alone at home. or alone in the state. or on earth. or in the universe, but maybe heaven too. everywhere. there's no one. alone." about a month ago.
h-e-l-p.
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Compulsive thinking causes so much confusion and anxiety in our fast-paced, western culture. I practiced some of what Eckhart Tolle teaches about living in the NOW, and it helped a great deal.
There is nothing we can do about tomorrow or yesterday AT THIS TIME. Dwelling on future causes worry and fear, on the past causes regrets and guilt feelings. DAMNED EITHER WAY. Just stop your mind for a while.
I do this with meditation. Google it. Then find a quiet place, sit still and concentrate only on breathing, for example. Your wacky emotions will be forced out, because you are not thinking about all that sh*t, if done properly for even a few minutes.
This works for me. Google it for more detail.
you're scared because you've come to realize that you are alone in this world. but you've gotta learn that you aren't alone. and i dont mean that God is among us, but rather there are people just like you. people who think the way you do, who doubt everything they know. I think like that too, but I've accepted it. I've accepted that God may not exist, but for some people he represents hope that people are not alone. you may not find this hope, so instead you need to find something that proves to you that you are not alone. stop trying to look past everything, and learn to appreciate things. that is what makes life so worthwhile.
when we die we all become one.
it's kind of strange but something like... a drop of water poured back to the sea to form part of something bigger so pretty much yeah that one is god alone in the universe we go back to him and have this endless feeling that makes us feel real good something like an orgasm that never ends, no worries, no war, just pure orgasmic feeling in outer space with fresh wind blowing :D
it's just a big mastery! no one really knows the truth but they like to pretend they do because it makes them feel better.
I think a lot about everything, and it's healthy. It helps you to realise who you really are, and by thinking you avoid being a mindless puppet like the rest 98%% of the world's inhabitants. You know what I mean mate; HEY! I CAN'T MAKE UP MY OWN FUCKING MIND, AND THAT'S WHY I AM A CHRISTIAN. Fuck that!
Don't ever stop thinking. A lot. About everything. You have plenty of time to sleep when you're dead.
and now that can mean a million and a half different things.. but who knows really..
i just say keep on truckin' and do what makes ya happy.. :)
i just accept that we exist just as we are (whatever that may be) because theres nothing we can do to change it anyway.. :P
its all good.. :)
that i'm 'alone', and no one else really exists. that's absolutely terrifying to think about.
but you're doing ok so far, you're getting by day to day, so just take it from there.
A song I listen to says;
"at anything that looks like easy prey
in this nature show that rages every day
it was then he heard his intuition say
we were all basically alone
and despite what all his studies had shown
that what's mistaken for closeness
is just a case of mitosis"
Technally saying, this closeness humans form is only to help the choseing of a mate, correct?
Despite your feelings about being utterly alone, you can still force yourself to belive.