Okay. First, let's settle down a few things.
I'm a quiet person. I rarely speak, and when I do, I don't feel comfortable. I prefer writing.
Most of the time, I find noise either annoying or insignificant. For example, if an object falls, and it doesn't even have to make a really loud noise, I'll startle. Every single time. Also, I find the sound of people yelling horrible (when there's some in movies, I usually lower the volume until it ends.) And as for music, well, I'm not too crazy about it. I could live a few months without (voluntarily) listening to music, and maybe I even all ready did, without noticing. (And anyway, apparently deaf people can still uh... ~feel the vibration and enjoy music or something like that. But the bottom line is that I wouldn't care much if I lost music.)
I'm really interested by deaf culture, I often read about it, and I'd *love* to learn a sign language.
Here all the things that make me want to become deaf.
Of course, there would be some things I would miss. Like hearing the crickets at night, or the cashier when he tells me how much to pay, and so forth... But sometimes, I come to think that in the end, it would be worth it.
(And I could be both a manual AND oral deaf at the same time since I'm not born deaf and thus master pronunciation ! So it would be a slightly "better" condition than the average person-who-is-born-deaf. I guess.)
Now, I know it isn't normal. But is it at least understandable ? Or is it just utterly crazy ?
I'm a quiet person. I rarely speak, and when I do, I don't feel comfortable. I prefer writing.
Most of the time, I find noise either annoying or insignificant. For example, if an object falls, and it doesn't even have to make a really loud noise, I'll startle. Every single time. Also, I find the sound of people yelling horrible (when there's some in movies, I usually lower the volume until it ends.) And as for music, well, I'm not too crazy about it. I could live a few months without (voluntarily) listening to music, and maybe I even all ready did, without noticing. (And anyway, apparently deaf people can still uh... ~feel the vibration and enjoy music or something like that. But the bottom line is that I wouldn't care much if I lost music.)
I'm really interested by deaf culture, I often read about it, and I'd *love* to learn a sign language.
Here all the things that make me want to become deaf.
Of course, there would be some things I would miss. Like hearing the crickets at night, or the cashier when he tells me how much to pay, and so forth... But sometimes, I come to think that in the end, it would be worth it.
(And I could be both a manual AND oral deaf at the same time since I'm not born deaf and thus master pronunciation ! So it would be a slightly "better" condition than the average person-who-is-born-deaf. I guess.)
Now, I know it isn't normal. But is it at least understandable ? Or is it just utterly crazy ?
However, it's funny that you mentioned music several times, because this I feel is one of the best gifts given to us (good music anyways). And the ability to console a friend is very satisfying but hard to do without words.
So no you are not crazy in the least bit, however I am a bit surprised that it isn't a battle you've tried to overcome. Practice telling jokes and singing to songs. You might have the best voice out there.
P.S You can't go wrong learning the language of the deaf like you stated in your last paragraph. Skills are skills and having the option to acquire good friends who are deaf has got to be priceless.
and me?...i sleep with ear plugs in EVERY night because i cant block out the hum of the street..I wake up with every slight sound. Are you the same?.... I am a writer....I LOVE writing..do it all the time, its my medium... the way i best express myself (you may be surprised to learn after reading this garble) and i cant write with music on...i cant concentrate with music on ...I cant hear you if you talk to me and the TV is on. I actually had a go at wearing earplugs outside for a whole day the other day...and i loved it. jeez...im weirder that you....am I? I am very sensitive to music...i LOVE it...but repetitive beats and over simplistic beats (like reggae) infuriate me...... perhas we have something wrong with the part of our brain that can tune out the different sights and sounds of existence... aespergic? schitzophrenic? these conditions have difficulty filtering thier senses.....
let me know if your as messed up on the sleeping front as i am.
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Thanks for the comments.
Well, since then I've started to find music that I do enjoy... Turns out I'm just extremely picky. But even then, I could spend months in complete silence.
obeyus> As for sleeping, I personally don't need earplugs. I'm okay with the usual street humming. But if there's any other sound (ticking clock, neighbour's TV...), I can't sleep. It's just impossible. But I don't rely on earplugs because they're uncomfortable and they would probably keep me from sleeping just as much as the noise, so... when it's noisy, I just don't sleep. It's as stupid as that.
But maybe the fact that I'm insomniac has something to do with that. Uh.
As for wearing earplugs all day... gah... that would be fantastic if earplugs didn't bug me. Actually I thought about buying acoustic earmuffs but apparently they don't block everything... You can still hear people talking, or sirens, and so forth. So it may be fine for people working with a pneumatic drill, but not for me.
Maybe I should try to find better earplugs... lol. I don't think you're any weirder than I am.
Freestyle786> Yes, I know that I would regret it.
But hearing the clothes dryer going on and on and on and on world without end until the towels are dry still makes me want to jump out the window.
Yazorin> 'Seems unlikely since I'm a girl.
(English is not my mother tongue btw, so sorry for the mistakes. Feel free to correct me. I don't know if "I wish I were deaf" would have been better ?)
Did anything work for you yet ?
I'm scared to try some stuff and want to know if worked for ppl before ?
Hope to talk with you soon
But I'm consulting and I talked about it with my shrink. It could be attention deficit triggered by depression, sensory processing disorder... We don't know yet, but I don't think I'll try to deafen myself any time soon.
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