To begin with, I have kissed before...I actually enjoyed it the first times but now I don't want to. I don't get it, whenever I get close to a significant other I just can't. It's not like I don't get aroused and have sex but it's just kissing and being affectionate is something I don't feel like doing. I thought it was probably because I genuinely haven't had real feelings for another person in a while but maybe it isn't. And somehow all of this gives me an empty feeling, like a hole within me that I can't really fulfill.