Well I don't really know if anything happened when I was a kid or not. All I can member is a good life only gotten in to 5 fights in my life. All for bullying. Today i realized that i didn't really caired if my parents died,or if my friend died or, if my girl friend. Even if i die. I dont feel depressed. Or suicidal. I try to blended in with people and act like something in not. I don't really know if i have feeling at all. But i do smile and giggle at pain. That's about it. Dose any body know what to do???