I've known him for 11 years. We are best friends....Sometimes with benefits. I love him. This benefits thing is not going over so well with me. He see's other people and enjoys it. I see other people and it makes me feel sick, cause it's not with him. I've now become a jealous person. Sucks bad... He cares alot about me, he knows exactly how i feel, because i've told him. In a way he doesn't want to let me go cause he does care so much for me. I don't want to let him go cause i care for him so much. He wants to be able to do his own thing, i can't deny him that. He want's to continue what we have and have me see other people too. I can't get myself to do that. It feels like cheating, and I don't like it. I want him to be happy. I don't want to hold him back from enjoying his life. I don't want to hold myself back from enjoying my life. We don't stop what we do with eachother cause we want eachother so bad. His is like a want, mine is like a aching want. It sucks, it's confusing....What do i do?