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In love with a man I never knew.
Is it normal to be infatuated with a man I never knew, who is long dead, and probably never would have even had a chance with?
Leonardo da Vinci. Oh yes, I love him. The man of my dreams who fits every perfect description and quality of what I want in my other half.
It started with an admiration years ago, of someone I inspired to be as great as. As an artist and dreamer myself, he has always been my greatest influence.
But recently, that great men of whom my influences were spawned has become the love of my life and I don't even know him.
Is it at all normal to have fallen in love with someone I don't know, never would have known, or even would have been compatible with?
I insist to maintain my love for him by using it as a means to be a greater person in my own self-image, "If I cannot have this man I love, I will strive to achieve to become myself what I desire in him."
Luckily, I have not allowed my infatuation for da Vinci to delude my own relationships. I have a boyfriend whom I love and adore and appreciate in all aspects (he also has a similar complex where he adores another great man, Beethoven, so he can understand where I come from). I haven't started comparing the people around me with the expectations of Leonardo da Vinci, and I haven't yet gone far enough to dissect human corpses for anatomical studies.
However, while I have a healthy goal to be inspired by, I think it may have become unhealthy and probably depressing that I have not yet, nor probably ever will become as knowledgeable as he, and that I feel as though I am actually in love with him.
In love with a man I never could have known. That just couldn't be normal, could it?
Do I set my own expectations too high? Am I deluded by the studies of a human whose personal life is a mystery and all anybody really knows for certain is what is left by vague notebooks?
Is it OK to have an undying passion for someone out of my league, and age, that somehow drives me intensely in the path of my own life?
Maybe I should have been like everyone else and drew my aspirations from some television star....
Leonardo da Vinci. Oh yes, I love him. The man of my dreams who fits every perfect description and quality of what I want in my other half.
It started with an admiration years ago, of someone I inspired to be as great as. As an artist and dreamer myself, he has always been my greatest influence.
But recently, that great men of whom my influences were spawned has become the love of my life and I don't even know him.
Is it at all normal to have fallen in love with someone I don't know, never would have known, or even would have been compatible with?
I insist to maintain my love for him by using it as a means to be a greater person in my own self-image, "If I cannot have this man I love, I will strive to achieve to become myself what I desire in him."
Luckily, I have not allowed my infatuation for da Vinci to delude my own relationships. I have a boyfriend whom I love and adore and appreciate in all aspects (he also has a similar complex where he adores another great man, Beethoven, so he can understand where I come from). I haven't started comparing the people around me with the expectations of Leonardo da Vinci, and I haven't yet gone far enough to dissect human corpses for anatomical studies.
However, while I have a healthy goal to be inspired by, I think it may have become unhealthy and probably depressing that I have not yet, nor probably ever will become as knowledgeable as he, and that I feel as though I am actually in love with him.
In love with a man I never could have known. That just couldn't be normal, could it?
Do I set my own expectations too high? Am I deluded by the studies of a human whose personal life is a mystery and all anybody really knows for certain is what is left by vague notebooks?
Is it OK to have an undying passion for someone out of my league, and age, that somehow drives me intensely in the path of my own life?
Maybe I should have been like everyone else and drew my aspirations from some television star....
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Comments (8)
Anonymous (Story Author)
I should also add that while my boyfriend does adore Beethoven, he doesn't share the love for his inspirations that I do. He is not infatuated with Beethoven like I am infatuated with da Vinci.
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buriedalive (16071)
It's not exactly 'normal', but as long as you continue to make sure it doesn't take over your life, it should be fine. You've probably romanticized him a bit, as some people do with characters in books and stuff, but he was a great man and there's nothing wrong with having an equally great admiration for him. Your worries about becoming depressed that you'll never meet him shouldn't come to fruition provided you live your life as fully as you can and make sure you're in a happy, healthy relationship (which you seem to be). Just try to keep focussed on the thought that you have a good life already which is only enhanced by reading/ viewing his works :)
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winterfresh (21111)
@: buriedalive
Ohh everyone has a fantasy crush. Mine is Severus Snape :)
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fashionstar11 (21752)
Is a platonic love but itīs a normal thing because he is a fantastic man and artist.
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wardenclyffe (22473)
I hate to be the one to tell you, but he was gay.
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Anonymous (Story Author)
@: wardenclyffe
Uh huh. Every famous man in history has some sort of rumor about being gay. Shakespeare was gay, Elvis was gay, Abraham Lincoln was gay, and I bet William Shatner is gay too.... But why stop at famous people? Maybe all men are gay... you're gay too, how about that?
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firepokeit (25244)
i am Leonardo da Vinci hun, and i want you in my bed ;D
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joliegems (28460)
I assume you are a dude because you must know that Da Vinci was a homo.
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