It hurts to talk about this, but I'm kind of digging this site because I have a lot of skeletons in my closet that have been eating away at me over the years. I am a male, 26 years old. First of all let me say that I have a wonderful woman in my life and...I'm trying to avoid cheating as best as I can. That said, I have found some of my relatives to be sexually attractive in my later years. In my early years (when I didn't really know what sex was) I experimented with both my cousins (male and female) and my older brother...I think he's about 2 or 3 years older than me. I only experimented with him a couple of times and that was when I was like...4 or 5. We experimented with the "tongue kiss" and that was it. As for my male cousin it too was only "tongue", there was never any genital touching with the males. With my female cousin there was some. I licked (only a couple of licks each time...I really didn't like the taste) her vagina a couple of times on a couple of conjoined occasions and touched it a couple of times. Never penetrated. I experimented with my niece one time when I was 13, she was about 9. And, oddly enough it was HER idea...she had a skank for a mom, so I guess she overheard some stuff, or saw some stuff. All she did was feel on my penis for a little bit. And she straddled me and kind of ground into it a little. She told me, "We'll practice first and then we'll do the real thing". I told her "No" to the real thing. that was the last time I've ever done anything like that. I feel extremely guilty about it to this day, but I'm not going to say that I wouldn't find a relative (has to be female now) sexually attractive still. I just wouldn't act on it....unless I was single....Shameful...I also experimented with beastiality around my pre-teen to early teen years with my dogs. That happened, maybe a total of 5 or 6 times. I don't have to be told whether or not this is normal....I know it's not....I just wanted to get it out of my system....but, I would appreciate some feed-back...I don't want to feel alone.