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Interested in a Homeless Man
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I know I can never tell anyone this because it's too disgusting and bizarre, but when I graduated high school (maybe the stress of the transition?) I became interested in a homeless man. I know it's horrible and disgusting and just wrong. He was older, much older, 47 I think, and I thought he was interesting and liked his accent. I was attracted to him. We never had sex or anything, but we did kiss and "hang out" I guess. Sometimes I would go to his motel. The last night I ever saw him he tried to make me have sex with him for hours and I blocked him with my hands, but I never left. Finally I was exhausted and agreed but by that time he'd lost his erection. He angrily told me it was probably meant to be. I thought it would be OK because he left to go out west for a job so I'd never see him again. At the time I was emotional about his leaving but I was also relieved that I wasn't going to have lost my virginity in that situation that would always follow me. But sometimes I still can't shake the fact that I did this. I was old enough to know right from wrong, acceptable from not, but I didn't care at the time. But now I wonder how I can ever have a normal relationhip with a good guy and be open. I could never tell anyone this it's too disgusting.
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Comments (17)
DaddYCaT4MommaCaT18to30 (11839)
2008-10-16 22:46:00
You got pick up the pieces and go on
I think we all are very lonely people
And that is why we do things that we
Do ..
I helped this one girl out , Now i am
nothing to her ..We meant on this one
site , I am trying to get over the
pain that she has caused me ..

Good Luck
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gono666 (16993)
2008-10-17 09:07:21
sadly the heart does not know rich from poor or young from old and sometimes right from wrong but you must understand that you cannot control what you feel sometimes, a good friend of mine once told me " if you think you can't feel, and if you feel you can't think "
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violent10dency (10988)
2008-10-20 06:59:08
It doesn't matter that he was older, and homeless. If he would have been rich and older he probably would have raped you, because he would have known he could have got away with it. There is nothing wrong with what you did, and your future boyfriends, fiance, and husband don't have to know about this. People have done way worse sexually and just in general then what you have done, and never told their mate, I promise you that.
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heidi12345678 (17343)
2008-11-01 17:46:13
you poor poor girl. srsly, hes a bastard. i used to feel sorry for homeless people too, so i would sit down and talk to them and buy them coffee and give them money, but really, all they want is to take advantage cos theyre so desperate for anything.

im sure homeless people have their story too, maybe they have had a tough time or whatever, but srsly. they shouldnt take advantage of a young girl just because shes too nice.

well, okay, their are some ok homeless people. like, i used to know this homeless guy who would buy me cigarettes (id pay) when i was too young to buy them myself. and he read terry pratchett novels and he seemed like a nice guy. but most of them are desperate lazy dickfaces. no offence.
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comalies (6298)
2008-12-14 14:35:03
well as long as he wasnt disusting looking, then its ok
just move on
put it aside
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pretty_poison (18206)
2008-12-18 22:34:21
This sounds like a play or a short story.
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Jim_Pfoss (19247)
2009-01-12 00:01:44
There's no accounting for taste, really.
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Krenn (19919)
2009-02-01 21:44:12
He wasn't clean, but if you wouldn't feel dirty it's good, otherwise..
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geckopaws (20496)
2009-03-02 13:46:32
@: heidi12345678
Look I wouldn't be talking bad about homeless people because I was freaking homeless once and you know what not all homeless people are bad. A lot of them have jobs and can't afford housing I think you are stereotyping too much. Which homeless person did you buy coffee for because that was a nice gesture and you know what they do thank you for it you know so that should be good enough for you if you are doing a public freaking service. Being homeless is a very bad situation and sometimes the best people end up in that situation so why don't you freaking shut your mouth about homeless people.
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Medex (20686)
2009-03-03 07:49:48
Its brave of you to confess something like this. It would be alight if you fell in a love with a man, many young girls fall in love with handsome older men. The fact that he was homeless made you more braver. But, since he was, he might not have been who you thought he would be. I mean, what if he had sex with you, and then dumped you right afterwards? He could have done it for his own personal gains.

Just be careful who you are with.
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pattacake (20698)
2009-03-03 15:08:01
it was probably stress, u just wanted to break out. like u figured that a homeless guy wouldnt want u to be getting good grades or look a certain way so u liked him

dont feel guilty, its not normal but there's nothing wrong with it. move on. u dont have to tell people just be honest with yourself
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churbur (21140)
2009-03-21 08:19:03
That's not horrible and disgusting at all. Just because he doesn't have a house, he's no less of a person. The heart doesn't take money and possessions into account when choosing a soul mate
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jellokatt (18285)
2009-07-08 00:27:02
a lot of my friends were homeless.... it's called being a poor college student and getting kicked out of the dorm. i know a lot of really cool people who are or were homeless.

one of my friends is now a top manager at her office, and for a while, she was homeless. no one would have ever suspected because she was always so well dressed, but she was living in her car for a while.
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nico633 (25458)
2009-07-12 10:35:50
hahahahahaha
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theonethatsred (26616)
2009-08-04 20:39:17
well.. he's less well off than others. if he's gone somewhere with the true intention to work and earn a living.. i don't see what's wrong in it. i'm 'loaded' today.. but guess what.. i had to do what he is doing. Work.

having said that, i do hope you maintain a standard according to your self image,atleast, from now on. A man with no wealth won't appeal to you for too long - but it might be too late by then.
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PoisonFlowers (28309)
2009-09-12 08:30:30
Why do you feel disgusted? Is it because he happened to be homeless? Don't hold that against him :/ He's still a person.
I can understand if it's because you felt used by him though. It's okay - you weren't ready and that was that.
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nothing2 (29013)
2009-10-15 19:45:47
that's sick. that's why you did'nt call me? you're sick.
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