Yea my bf has been an extreme jerk after we broke up. He's done so much shit... He flicks me off when I try to talk to him. I almost think he's afraid to talk to me because he gets other people to cuss me out for him. He sends me hate mail through text all day. At one point he ven sent me a pic of his new girlfriend (which he got about 3 days later) flickin me off and it said "Heres my new gf. And she has a message for you" and he's also done alot of other things which I'd rather not repeat... I'm angry at him for being such a douch bag. And angry at myself for still feeling in love with him. Is this normal? :/ or am I a complete retard?

my ex has turned into a dick and them he found this girlfriend that puts herself out.
if ya know what i mean.
but now, he texts me all the time saying how mch he likes me but hes still with his girlfriend, and is hiding his feelings for me..
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i refuse to go back to him.
You're not really in love with him. You're loving the memory of how it use to be, back when he was nicer to you.
And you're thinking to yourself that you won't find someone new - or that you don't deserve it.
Break all contact with him. Be alone. Take time to heal.
All you're doing right now is torturing yourself.
He could be regreting the decision & acting like an ass. But he's taking it WAYYYY to far. You should never instinctively say Yes. He would need to REALLYYY work to get you back. For a long time. You should really try to Forget him though, if he hasn't made an effort to make things right yet.