Ok, so I'm in this "relationship" I guess. I've been "seeing" this guy for almost a year and a half. But we've not dating. We do everything as if we were a couple such as; dates, cuddling, sex, and just plain old hanging out 24/7.
I have major issues with myself. I think I'm the ugliest person alive. I hate going out because I think everyone is staring at me. Malls and other girly things I don't like, because I think every pretty person is making fun of me. I use to be so confident. I wore makeup, (nice) girl clothing, took out over 14 peircings (all hidden on the body, except 2), just so I could fit in. But it seemed like nothing was good enough. Instead of people whispering behind my back, they told me to my face. It's completely ruined my confidence.
Now my question finally is.. Is it normal to think he's just waiting for something better to come along? It's been a year and a half, and to everyone we are still JUST friends. I don't know what to do! I love him to death but I don't want a f*ck buddy.
Me and my 'boyfriend' (who is my friend, we are not going out but we have sex, kiss etc) have had plenty of arguments about the topic of what we are and I walk off then apologise but I never get my answer.
The point of my story is talk to him about it and ask him, maybe try to say it as a joke first then look deeper into it like 'I never know where I stand with you sometimes...' and just get he's attention, if he cared he would listen and answer and you could maybe act on it.
By the way ugliness is all in your head. You are not ugly unless you believe it so find youself some confidence. Many websites give advice about it, just google it or something