So my friend asked if she could use my laptop for a project because I have a certain editing program and camera that she could use. And at first a while back I said yes that she can use it, only because I don't want to say No you can't, when in my head I was really didn't want to share it. Well she asked me if she could come over and use and I told her how I really felt, and hope she didn't think I was rude or anything and that I should not have got her hopes up in the first place. Is it normal for me to do this? Or am I just an asshole.