IIN for every calorie and bite I take I feel horrible about, and That if I don't get at least an hour of excercise in a day I feel useless, lazy and fat. And I can only eat certain foods if I had an intense workout and that is all I can ever think about? But every once in a while I'll eat to much and I feel horrible the rest of the week. It all that goes through my head...IIN?

I know it's difficult to relinquish control sometimes, but you need to enjoy life and that is the point of diet and excersise to begin with: so instead of being too overweight to move or too unhealthy to walk up a flight of stairs at 30, you can do the things that require physical activity as opposed to having to spend your time pitying your weak physical condition and popping drug cocktails at 40.
Keeping yourself fit is about keeping your capacity to enjoy life. Don't go too far overboard, you'll defeat the purpose of it.
think your eating a 1000 calories a day? YOUR ACTUALLY EATING A HUNDRED THOUSAND MUHUHAHAHAHAHAHA
no its not normal. you have an obsessive disorder.