I ain't sure as to whether it's normal. But I'm an agnostic, since then I invented my own way of life: self-transformation (changing your life, and changing yourself to be back to your original nature), it's not spirituality, but some meditation is necessary for true agnosticism, plus miracles do happen, I can't describe it, but I swear I was once in a perfect place of angels beyond my imagination, I find this profound, higher than the heavens of earth. I'm not sure there is God, but I detect, look for clues and get to the bottom of this. I find self-transformation profound. And my life has meaning, is profound, but secular, is that normal?