Honestly. This "I am fat" feeling is killing me. I feel so disgustingly fat all the time that I won't even go out with my friends, and now they're starting to ask why I suddenly stopped being social. I don't know what to do anymore. It isn't even a matter of dieting or lifestlyle. I'm 5'3, weight about 97 lbs, exercise every single day (burning at least 400 calories a day), and count calories and eat healthy all the time. I really should feel good about myself by now, but NO. I feel like shit, everyday I hate myself more, and when I slip out of my diet a little I just feel like dying once and for all. I'm desperate. I can't ask for help because I don't really suffer from anything, and my parents have already enough problems (brother with severe depression, brother left gf pregnant and mother has cancer). I feel like I'm doing nothing but adding problems to everyone. But I seriously don't know what to do. I'm here in a room, alone, crying (I even took pictures of myself crying to make me realize how pathetic I am), while my family and cousins are downstairs having fun. I am seriously tempted to cut myself, or sleep for days, or do something stupid, idk. I just want to disappear. Okay, rant over.

1. You are not fat. I know exactly how you feel. I have felt the same way so many times.
I find it difficult to explain over the internet but anyway, you need to look at the positive side of your life. Yes, I know that everything is horrible. This is where you come in.
When a person feels the way that you feel now the best thing to do is to reassure yourself that everything is ok (because you are not fat).
The next thing to do is to, instead of focusing so much on yourself focus on your mother and your brother; focus on people who need you now. Since you are not fat, accept yourself the way that you are, but be more lenient towards yourself. What I mean here is that what maybe makes you feel this way is the fact that you have put a lot of pressure on yourself about looking perfect and eating correct. There is nothing wrong with this, but at one point or another some of us can crack under the pressure. You have got it into your head that you are still fat. I assume that you have felt like this for too long that it is hard for you to feel any other way.
Take a chill pill, relax, and enjoy eating = this equals enjoying yourself when exercising. See the good side in everything.
Next, focus on helping your mother and brother. They need you. You aren't even fat and look what you are doing to yourself when those people need you. I know that it is tough living in this difficult situation, but you have to keep strong. Giving up is easy. Being strong is a choice. I am sure that you know which one is better. I have said it so many times that the right thing to do is always the hardest, and it is. What will cutting yourself do? It might make you feel a little better for the time being. Where will it lead you?
What you need to do now is stop giving yourself so much attention and start giving it to those who really need it. Read motivational quotes and life stories. They always give us a brighter view on life. Just don't back down.
Go out with your friends. Push yourself, because if you don't you will break yourself. You don't want to be there, trust me. It will take time to get back on track, but it is worth it every second.
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Btw, before you lose anymore weight, please seek help...I think you may have a problem!
And Im skinny as fuck.... Now im crying :'(
You only weigh 97 pounds, and you think you're FAT? LMAO.
I bet you are only asking this because you want people to say that you aren't fat..
Objectively, you can see that given your height and weight you are actually underweight. It is because your must be experiencing personal turmoil in your life over things that you cannot control that you have focused on altering something about yourself.
If it wasn't feeling fat it'd be about something else-the fact that you want to cut yourself is another manifestation of this same issue. Clearly you are hurting and in pain and I feel for you.
But please don't harm yourself-either by starvation/over-exercising or cutting. Just look at your life, try to identify what's wrong with it, what you'd like to see improve or change and work on fixing that.
To an extent we can be our own worst critics and torturers. I used to be well built, but I'm now out of shape, it bothers me a lot because that's not how I see myself or wish others to see me and also cause my friends are fit and I'm not.
They of course make fun of me for it-that doesn't affect me actually, my own disappointment with letting myself go does, since I was fit most of my life.
But I know I will eventually get in good shape again, because I'm a very disciplined person. Till then I really am not happy with the way I look so I suffer with these feelings.
So you're not alone feeling the way you do, but I think you're taking things to an extreme. If you can't solve the problem yourself, look into getting professional help.
Stay engaged with your friends, they will help you feel normal and human. If you isolate yourself, you will intensify whatever mental anguish you're going through.
Stop being hard on yourself and instead learn to love and accept yourself the way you are, you deserve not to suffer. Hope my advice helped.