Honestly. This "I am fat" feeling is killing me. I feel so disgustingly fat all the time that I won't even go out with my friends, and now they're starting to ask why I suddenly stopped being social. I don't know what to do anymore. It isn't even a matter of dieting or lifestlyle. I'm 5'3, weight about 97 lbs, exercise every single day (burning at least 400 calories a day), and count calories and eat healthy all the time. I really should feel good about myself by now, but NO. I feel like shit, everyday I hate myself more, and when I slip out of my diet a little I just feel like dying once and for all. I'm desperate. I can't ask for help because I don't really suffer from anything, and my parents have already enough problems (brother with severe depression, brother left gf pregnant and mother has cancer). I feel like I'm doing nothing but adding problems to everyone. But I seriously don't know what to do. I'm here in a room, alone, crying (I even took pictures of myself crying to make me realize how pathetic I am), while my family and cousins are downstairs having fun. I am seriously tempted to cut myself, or sleep for days, or do something stupid, idk. I just want to disappear. Okay, rant over.