I think I stated this before but I have had a few lovers . I nolonger feel alot of sensation and most them only last a few months . I do not understand why poeple only last a month or two ? I do not understand how poeple last up to 5 years in highschool it is impossible . After awhile I stoped getting sensation when they hug me kiss me . I had a boyfreind for 2 years and after that piont I fealt nothing for him anymore . Although its not only that i dont feel alot of emotioniol attatchement to poeple either . I use to have really bad emotioniol issues as a little kid I could walk into a crowd of poeple but I fealt like my emotions were not thier I could talk to them but I fealt no closeness or attatchement to them I fealt a strong attatachemtn to very few and that usually fades after a time . As I grew my emotions constantly went up and down and now Im almost back to the piont as i was when I was a child . I use to feel alot of Hostiliaty and i was very violent and agressive I learned that seriel killers have these kind of reactions to poeple and often have emotioniol problems . Does this sound normal ? Or does this sound like thier is something kindve wrong ? "