I'll be reading a book or doing something as simple as eating, and then I think "am I here? what is this? life is so weird, is this even real?". It sounds stupid phrasing it like that, but I can't think of another of putting it. I'll just suddenly become aware of the reality of life, and this often leads to thoughts on how ephemeral life is, which causes this anxiety.
Anyway, I asked a friend if they had thoughts like this, and they said no, so I was wondering how common it is? What do you think about on this topic, do you have a question similar to this that you feel is unanswerable?
Anyway, I asked a friend if they had thoughts like this, and they said no, so I was wondering how common it is? What do you think about on this topic, do you have a question similar to this that you feel is unanswerable?
More to the point, I am pretty much constantly aware of time and death. It can certainly be disturbing. And sometimes I have little perception epiphanies where I realize how hilarious and absurd everything is or how weird looking humans are, etc. I have no idea whether these thoughts are normal.
I've been having thoughts like this since I was about 10(as far as I can remember), but they started to occur more often when I was about 15 and I was looking back on the past 3 years and I realised that there were only a few things I could remember. It's like I'f been on "autopilot" for those 3 years, and it scared the hell out of me:/
I've only maybe in the past few years started thinking of this in terms like "being gone" and on "autopilot," but I also think it started around the same time for me, probably 8-10 years old. I don't know if it was related to some stuff that was going on in my life at the time or that's just a coincidence, but I remember being younger and experiencing things very differently. I doubt it's just because that's how kids are though, because I've had a handful of episodes where I've gone back to being that way for a day or a few hours. It seems like how things are supposed to be.
I'm surprised to find someone else like this. Maybe it's more normal than I thought.