I am disapointed in my life. Everything goes wrong. I hate my college and the fact I learn stupidity and lies. I am higly interested in Illuminati and in HAARP and I do believe conspirancies. And I will not stop no matter what you say. I know a lot about this all and I so into it. I hope this world will change. I am atheist. Always been. My familly supports me. I just wanna something more. Hoping someday someone will recognize me and ask me to join. Don't answer if you have no idea what am I talking about.

Please come back to us when you actually have something to offer you can contribute instead of trying to freeload your way through live.
You're clearly not going to listen to any advice anyone tries to offer, so may as well let you pretend you're happy being a non-existent conspiracy-obsessed thing....
In the conspiracy theories, the Illuminati are only one part of the whole conspiracy.
I wouldn't be able to explain it all in a comment, just Google it.