My nans mother is still alive she's 89 nearly 90 and I'm not sure why but I hate her. She unnerves me simpy for the fact she's 90 and still alive.My nan is like 54 and when she phones my great gran I feel uncomfortable and express to my nan I don't want her to speak to her own mother on the phone around me.Its like she's speaking to a dead lady so IIN to feel this freaked out by this.

ASHAMED OF YOU TO BE PART OF THE HUMAN SPECIES.
I think the average lifespan for women is now 84yo in the Western world and a man 78yo - so you may prepare for it.
if she was around today, she would have turned 95 in March.
If you don't care or wonder about any of this, I wonder just what you do fill your thoughts with. They must be amazing if the history of how you came to be is not even an afterthought but a non-thought.
You won't remember posting this story when you yourself are ninety, but part of me hopes you do.
You're shalloooooow.