Hello everyone. I'm a girl, 17yrs old. I'm from Philippines. (Sorry If I couldn't speak English fluently) :)
I am a simple person yet I have so many secrets and regrets inside. I was born in Japan but my parents are both Filipino. & I have one sister. We're living happily in every situation of our life.. but one day, my father got sick (Cancer in Lungs) when I was 9. The doctor said to us that we need to bring back my father to Philippines & to continue his medication and everything.. but when we got back, my father died after few months.
Well, this is the problem. My mother and my father weren't married. So I have no right to take his opulence or anything he owns. After my father gone, we used to live in my Aunt Medy's house and she treated us like a maid so that she could provide us shelter, food, and my education.
Years passed, until I became 16 year-old, one of my father's sister took me to dwell in her house to support my education because she has a faith on me that I could finish my studies and to help my mother and sister when I've got my job. My mother was remarried now and my sister is with her in our province.
Every night, when I'm thinking of my pasts about my family when we were living in Japan, I always cry with my pillow. I always think of everything I couldn't bring it back - Family bonding, having fun with my parents, playing with my sister, shopping, peers, and everything. As of now, I can't afford anything because I have no money and I am just dwelling at my aunt's house. All I have to do is to study and to accomplish my promise to my father that I would graduate. I really miss my father and my family. I know it sounds complicated - but this is how I feel. I wish I could be a little girl and never grow up again.. :(
I am a simple person yet I have so many secrets and regrets inside. I was born in Japan but my parents are both Filipino. & I have one sister. We're living happily in every situation of our life.. but one day, my father got sick (Cancer in Lungs) when I was 9. The doctor said to us that we need to bring back my father to Philippines & to continue his medication and everything.. but when we got back, my father died after few months.
Well, this is the problem. My mother and my father weren't married. So I have no right to take his opulence or anything he owns. After my father gone, we used to live in my Aunt Medy's house and she treated us like a maid so that she could provide us shelter, food, and my education.
Years passed, until I became 16 year-old, one of my father's sister took me to dwell in her house to support my education because she has a faith on me that I could finish my studies and to help my mother and sister when I've got my job. My mother was remarried now and my sister is with her in our province.
Every night, when I'm thinking of my pasts about my family when we were living in Japan, I always cry with my pillow. I always think of everything I couldn't bring it back - Family bonding, having fun with my parents, playing with my sister, shopping, peers, and everything. As of now, I can't afford anything because I have no money and I am just dwelling at my aunt's house. All I have to do is to study and to accomplish my promise to my father that I would graduate. I really miss my father and my family. I know it sounds complicated - but this is how I feel. I wish I could be a little girl and never grow up again.. :(
Even reading your short post, I believe that you will achieve your ambitions and you are a lot stronger than you know.
The very best of luck.
You should just do what I do, create a story in your head and follow along. I always picture myself as Link, saving a kingdom, moving one step closer every day. :P
I've been meaning to learn Filipino but I always put it off. XD You reminded me that I really want to learn it.
ps; your dad would be proud
ps: you are a real fighter because you survived all the bad things, as for the crying it will vanish when you reach the high levels of perfection :) i'll pray for you just never give up