Well, here it goes. I know this isn't really weird or unheard of but I don't know what the matter is. I LOVE soccer. Like it's pretty much all I think about. I watch it all the time on youtube, go to all the games I can, I talk about it 24/7. I am on jv but I really want to play in college. Here is the problem, I'm not very good. And the bad thing is that I'm lazy in everything I do. I'm surprised at myself that I actually go to conditioning and practices when I dispise running. I don't really practice at home but I want to. It's weird it's like I want to but then again do not have the willpower to go outside and run. Does this mean that I don't actually want it that much?