There's nothing wrong with my life. I do well in school, I have a lot of "friends", I get invited to parties all the time (even though I never go). I just feel empty, I am clinically depressed, but before I was way more open about my being anti-social and i always rationalized that caused my depression. There's also a girl. This girl is amazing. She's pretty, fun, and weird like me. She also loves me. I don't know why, but she does. It got to the point where she was asking me out twice a week, but for some reason I don't want to date her. It's like an analogy to my life. Nothings wrong, but i still don't want it. My friend thinks it's because I do a lot of drugs (pain killers, anxiety meds, adhd meds, weed, acid, coke, salvia etc...) but I am in control of my addiction, I frequently quit each of these cold turkey, just to make sure I can. I just kind of feel empty, and there's no reason why. The only thing that upsets me is that I am sad for no reason. So essentially IIN to be depressed.