I had a life, then destroyed by a drunk driver. It wasn't me who actually was in the accident it was my 2 marriage spouse. Money rolled in after three years of struggling and I was booted out the door because spouse wanted to make sure his prev family was taken care of in case of his death (quadriplegic) and now I just don't care about anything or anyone, I distant my self from everyone and I just don't care. I believe I am posting this because maybe someone out there will say something that will trigger me to want to have a life again, because it is human nature to want to live and appreciate life that was given to all of us and in saying all this I still feel that I read this somewhere and I know this is how it is suppose to be I DON'T FEEL IT ANYMORE....
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You are burned out and depressed and who could blame you?
You CAN come back from this and find the joy in living again but you may need a helping hand from a therapist to begin With.
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I'm sorry I just has to get that off my chest. It might not seem that bad to anyone else because I didn't add every single detail but it destroyed me. And I know Six Billion Secrets won't publish my secret. So yes, I know exactly how you feel.
Think about it. If you keep this up for a year or two and start gaining motivation to live your life again wouldn't you regret that you wasted a year of your life neither growing as a person or learning anything new? It's comparable to the feeling of someone who's in a comma for 5 years and they wake up and everyone has moved on with their lives, finished college, have families, have a career, while you've realized 5 years have been taken from you that you can't get back.
Just try to think that you dodged the bullet there! You could have been nursing that ungrateful swine for the next 20-30 years. Now you are free, free, free, to do whatever the hell you want to!
Go for it - run wild and enjoy your life.
It could've been worse! It could've been you in the accident ;o)
I for one am quite care free from ost things, and it's not a good thing. I know for a fact I'll have problems keeping a job, house, and maybe a family one day due to me not caring much about anything.
Being upset and wanting to not care is much better than not caring at all, believe me. And for your case, you best hope you're just upset.
Feel good about yourself though, you were his hands and his feet. You helped and did all you could do. Now that it has happened, and your realizing the problems you face, are in fact, problems, its the time to blossom into a stronger and more, prepared person. I mean that in a light way, you ARE stronger and you WILL benefit from this, you just can't see it yet. Believe that things will get easier, do things for yourself, it sounds like you deserve it. Honestly.
Don't be scared, be happy. You helped, you stood by your partners side when he needed it the most.. and now look at what youre going through, that doesnt sound right. You deserve to be loved by everyone, and looked up to. As well as never ending thank-you's from your family and your partners. You did what any human being possible could do. You were there. I don't think most could handle all of it and still trug along to work. Thank you, for being a kind human being.