Is it normal that I can't stand, and almost have a fear of eating infront of people? I'm not fat, I'm probably what you'd call slim/lanky. I'm 12stone 2lb and 6ft. I will go out of my way to eat on my own. il eat on my own in the car on my dinner break and il come up with excuses so I don't have to go out for meals with friends

Yes, normal, but I have no issue with it.
The right combination of eating, grinding+flushing, and dissolving in acids will _NOT_ leave a corpse.
Even if the party van shows up and does a torough check of your property, you can play it cool.
"One hair and the cops are there"
But many people get buried in a remote location and never found again. And no evidence in your house connecting it to you, so even if they find it, no connection.
"In a hole, in control"
If you do the deed someplace else, a nice big plastic bag will prevent evidence from showing up any place except those said cleaning parts...
If you do the deed at home, you have the same problem if you bury them somewhere and need to prepare proper("don't mind the foil everywhere, i was going to paint this room.").
But of course you are right, in the end, it is a mere matter of preference ^_^ Whatever disposal method makes one feel more comfortable, right?
If i do it my way but regulary go to the woods with a pickup-truck and a shovel, maybe let someone see me dig a hole once, they'll focus on that and never can find anything... ^_^
If you are sufficiently careful and willing to go all the way with preparations and work required, doing something that worked for few, but doing it proper, may actually be the way to go-if they EXPECT you to do option A or option B, but assume that with option A you mess up somewhere, if they don't find something, they'll focus on option B instead(where there's no way to find anything, since you did option A PROPER). know what i mean?
As said, different things for different people- unfortunately no oceans around here -_- and rivers and lakes are unfortunately not as convenient as ocean dumps.
ye, ye, i know, it's a dangerous hobby, but it's what works for me ^_^ It would be boring if we'd all be into the same things, wouldn't it?
Other way round from the descriptions given.
it seemed you are more focused on the various kinds of fun to have with the victim, while i greatly enjoy the psycho-games that take place beyond what happens with the victim?
A psychopath
"while i greatly enjoy the psycho-games that take place beyond what happens with the victim?"
Also a psychopath, and attention seeker.
The ones that play games last a few months and get caught. You'll be more famous than me but i will be out there for decades. Unless you're the Zodiac.
ah, and the getting caught part, thats simply not true. playing games is many different things. I didn't say i'd actively TRY to get them on my trail, only that ONCE they knock on my door, i'm more excited about the "game" continuing, rather than that being a reason for panic, and that i tend to be prepared for that, mentally and with the setup of everything.
And unless you reduce yourself to murdering random hobos, illegals, prostitutes or street children, sooner or later there's a good chance someone wants to ask a question or two. Especially if, as you said, you don't do the deed in a safe place that could be linked to you, but somewhere else(which, to me personally, makes little sense, because you'd leave genetic material in other places all the same, but have less chance of "cleaning" up said evidence, so IF a location is identified, well...)
A psychopath is a personality disorder. It doesn't have anything to do with the type of killer someone is.
1 in every 100 people are psychopathic, only a handful of them ever kill anyone.
And you got it a little wrong there as someone focusing purely on the victim would include sexual sadist's as they focus on that aspect the most. And they are considered the most psychopathic and worst of all types.
It's about distinction and style. 1 in x people is a criminal, only a handful of them will ever kill anyone. You don't call those "criminal", you call them murderer. And then you distinguish further what type of crime it was and why the murder happened.
To narrow down what one means to express, archetypes are helpful. If my english is not good enough to get my point across, then sorry.
As for the "worst" psychopaths, yeah, by the stone scala, e.g. But there's also differing opinions here. e.g. for me someone that thinks he's helping the victim(e.g. by cleansing it's soul through extensive torture before killing them) but takes no personal gratification from it is worse than someone that gets off on his sadistic pleasure.
as said, i already offered to simply disagree about what we think works how. If you can neither accept that nor that i'm entitled to my own views on these things, then this whole talk is rather pointless.
No... Really, that's because People don't like to be seen while eating...