Lately, i feel so lonely that i have the desire to cry at any moment : watching a romantic movie, just before sleeping, listening to music, showering and even when washing dishes ... I feel so depressed although i'm trying to have fun, nothing is really working.
I have a lovely family that i adore but still i feel that i need to be loved honestly by the convenient man, and this seems to be the reason of my depression. Actually i'm 24 years old, and the last time i experienced love was at the age of 18, and it was a total fail. Since then, i got myself busy in my studies in order not to get hurt again. Now by seeing many of my friends getting engaged, a bad feeling woke up inside me, i started to wish i have a man that loves me for real, get married and have kids ... This bad feeling keeps growing and makes me want to meet new people, behave in a weird way and may push me to making bad decisions.
What i really want to know is that normal ? and whatever the question is, how can i get rid of it?
I have a lovely family that i adore but still i feel that i need to be loved honestly by the convenient man, and this seems to be the reason of my depression. Actually i'm 24 years old, and the last time i experienced love was at the age of 18, and it was a total fail. Since then, i got myself busy in my studies in order not to get hurt again. Now by seeing many of my friends getting engaged, a bad feeling woke up inside me, i started to wish i have a man that loves me for real, get married and have kids ... This bad feeling keeps growing and makes me want to meet new people, behave in a weird way and may push me to making bad decisions.
What i really want to know is that normal ? and whatever the question is, how can i get rid of it?

*hugs*
thnx
Just. Let. Go.
You'll feel better afterwards.
Anyway thanks a lot your answer is a bit relieving especially because i can't talk about this matter to anyone of my friends and family :) thnk u
You've got heaps of good advice among the comments above, but give me a call if you still feel like you can't break free from your loneliness...
And yes, pedophiles should suffer a slow agonizing death besides that welcome to reality.