@ dappled : I don't know? Thought it could be self esteem, but realistically, I'm too awesome to have low self esteem!? Like with my family, I feel like they all talk about how much they don't like me, behind my back! But I know they love me! And we have some good times. And if two friends get together without me, I'm devastated cause I know they must be talking about me? I'm just weird :(
Weirdly, really great people can draw more negative attention than others. Tall Poppy Syndrome. I guess if you're being talked about, then at least you're making an impact on people. :)
I know why I'm like I am, though. Where do you think your feelings come from?