So to be honest, I don't love christmas. I don't spend a nice cozy christmas with close relatives opening presents together considering its just me and one of my parents. Instead me and my parent usually spend christmas at some friend's house or distant relative's home. I never like it, it's always been a cold atmosphere and quite awkward. I would rather spend it alone at my house (its not like I would feel lonely or anything) and have my mother go to her friend's house without me. The only thing I don't like about staying home alone is that I'll probably feel like I'm being judged by everyone who went.. (but I truly would enjoy spending it alone) So, is it normal that I want to spend christmas alone?