I have never met my father. I have no photos-nothing. So that also basically means I have no idea what the other 50% of me looks like. And, well, this is all from my reluctant mom, that since he was an alcoholic my mom never married him, and shes happy that he and his whole family is out of my life. And yea, this may sound a little sad, but it is already pretty common in the U.S. anyway, so I never really felt depressed, weird, or anything like that. But there was always one little nagging thought in the back of my head, always there ever since I was a little kid: my mom and her side of the family look nothing like me. At all. My mom is Taiwanese(Chinese, basically) and she and her family all have almond-shaped eyes, straight black hair, etc. But since my dad was not Asian, I was born with European eyes, and light brown curly hair, and, well, everybody just thinks I'm Italian-my hapa (half Asian) friends even don't say I look hapa enough! So I always felt like I was adopted, displaced. I mean, I just want to in least see the face of who gave me all these stupid dominant genes!