You were a victim of child abuse. No doubt about that. I think both of your reactions are normal: that you would feel 1) angry & hurt to this day; and, 2) that you would want to just let it go and get on with life.
You do have every reason to feel angry: you were mistreated and he was incredibly unfair. If you feel counseling might help, go for it. Self care too, to feel good (exercise, diet,etc.).
Just suggestions. I hope you do not in any way blame yourself for the abuse and put it all back where it belongs: on the shoulders of a poor excuse for a father.
You do have every reason to feel angry: you were mistreated and he was incredibly unfair. If you feel counseling might help, go for it. Self care too, to feel good (exercise, diet,etc.).
Just suggestions. I hope you do not in any way blame yourself for the abuse and put it all back where it belongs: on the shoulders of a poor excuse for a father.